In The Myth of Sisyphus, Camus wrote that weariness awakens consciousness, that “Everything begins with consciousness. Nothing is worth anything except through it.”
In the last few months, I’d been weary—sleeping, eating, exercising, commuting, working, preparing for more work, sleeping, and repeat—but I didn’t feel any consciousness awakening, and I still felt like I was waiting for that “everything”, or at least something, to begin.
I wanted to immerse my bare hands in the soil of life—to feel the softness of joy, the moisture of awe, and the cool warmth of peace, between my fingers. I wanted to feel alive: for my soul to urgently thrust itself into each morning, as if the spinning world depended on it.
Instead, I was stuck in traffic.
In the world of natural health junkies, spiritual community dwellers, and backpacking hippies, a Ten-Day Vipassana Retreat is a right of passage. My friends, colleagues and fellow travellers all assured me that the experience changed them. They all reflected on their ten days spent in the woods in silence, sitting for excruciatingly long hours, as catalysts for growth. They’d burned off dead and stagnant parts of their egos, let go of their cravings, and emerged shiny, with a renewed zest for all their lives had to offer.
Listening to their stories, I imagined myself in their places: sitting mute and contemplative in the dark. Through eliminating all input, I expected the Universe (with a capital U, naturally) to reveal rich meaning beneath its monotonous surface. Plus, I heard the food was good.
So, I signed up. A few months later, with a backpack filled with drab clothes and a meditation cushion, I was driving to the Dhamma Torana Vipassana centre, located outside of Barrie, Ontario.
A sleepy hippie greeted me as a I pulled into a virtually empty, gravel parking lot at the entrance to the centre.
I got out of my car and smiled at him, “I’m here for the Vipassana retreat.”
“Yeah, man,” He replied with eyebrows raised, as if searching his brain for what I was referring to. “Hey, though, do you mind parking your car closer to that truck? There’s going to be a lot of us trying to fit in here.”
I looked around for evidence of this meditation-hungry crowd. Instead, there were a handful of cars parked, including a large black pick-up truck and my own.
“Sure,” I said, “Do you mind just watching my bag?”
I squeezed my car up against the truck. Now we were two cars huddled side-by-side in the large, empty lot. It looked ridiculous but, you know, we were a community now.
“I couldn’t lift the bag,” Said the hippie-turned-parking-attendant, half-apologetically. He’d left it on its side in the dirt. The bag contained two pairs of pants, two t-shirts, some shampoo, and meditation cushion. It probably weighed three pounds.
I smiled tightly at him, hoisted the bag onto my shoulder, and made my way to the registration house to get my room key. Then I headed over to the women’s side of the property to find my cabin.
The cabin was a tiny room containing two beds separated by a shower curtain. I was supposed to share with a roommate, but she hadn’t arrived yet.
How do you room with someone you can’t talk to or look at? I prayed that my roommate wouldn’t show up and that I’d get the room to myself.
I put my things away and headed to the dining hall for dinner.
We were told to hand over our electronics, writing materials, and other valuables. I handed over my car keys so that I wouldn’t be tempted to escape. As my things were being placed into bins, I felt like Austin Powers preparing to be cryogenically frozen.
In fact, the retreat centre, while beautiful, had prison-like undertones. Signs declaring “Course Boundary” stopped you from exploring—or going back to the parking lot. Days later I would stare at that sign longingly, dreaming of the freedom represented by my car. Men and women were segregated into completely separate areas of the property. We weren’t allowed to talk and make eye contact once the silence was imposed. We were also told not to bring flashy, tight or flamboyant clothes and so many of use looked like prisoners: heads down, attention turned inwards, clothes dark, loose and drab.
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Dinner was vegan food. It was good. However, having been a recovering vegan in the past, I wondered if I’d finish the retreat like the parking volunteer, too weak to lift my own three-pound bag.
After dinner we were given a speech on the rules: no talking, texting, touching, making eye contact, gesturing, wearing tight clothing, doing yoga, running, writing, reading, sunbathing, killing (even mosquitos), sex, drugs, rock ‘n’ roll (or any other music, for that matter), alcohol, eating dinner (just some fruit for newbies), and so on. No Phone, no pets, no cigarettes. It was going to be a long ten days.
I couldn’t wait.
I wondered what amazing insights would emerge from these ten days of spacious silence.
It was time for the first meditation, after which we would observe the Nobel Silence. We settled onto our assigned cushions. I had brought my own meditation cushion and saw that others had brought their own supplies too. Many brought intricate contraptions for sitting: meditation benches, special blankets, chairs, back rests, and knee pads. Rather than preparing to sit for an hour, it looked like they were readying themselves to enter the Earth’s orbit.
The meditation started. The teacher of Ten-Day Vipassana retreats, S.N. Goenka, is dead and so instruction is delivered by a series of tapes he’d recorded, presumably, while still alive.
One of the two assistant teachers pressed play and Goenka’s chanting began. Goenka’s would be the only voice I’d really hear for ten entire days, and it had an alarming amount of vocal fry.
I fidgeted throughout the hour of our first meditation. My meditation practice up until that point consisted of daily thirty-minute sits. I don’t think I’d ever sat for an hour. In fact, after twenty minutes, I’d usually experience numbness in both legs that sent me crawling around on all fours painfully trying to restore blood flow. During this first hour I kept crossing and uncrossing my legs. It wasn’t just me; silence in the hall was punctuated by the cacophony of restless shuffling.
Five more minutes of chanting followed by a gong finally signalled the end of my antsy misery. I slowly and silently got up, keeping my eyes inoffensively cast in front of me, and shuffled, among the tribe of other zombies, out of the hall and back to my quarters. It was barely 9 pm, but I flopped exhausted onto my little bed and immediately fell asleep.
The next day, loud gonging heaved me into the pitch-dark early morning. It was 4:15 am. I dressed in the dark, shuffled to the bathroom to brush my teeth, and headed to the meditation hall for the first two-hour meditation of the First Day.
The schedule was terrifying. We were to wake at 4:15 in the morning to sit for the first meditation, two hours, at 4:30. A gong would then signal breakfast for 6:30 am, after which we’d sit for another hour of meditation. Then we were to return to the meditation hall or go to our rooms and sit for two more hours. Lunch was at 11:00 am, followed by another break. Then, four hours of meditation followed by a snack break, where new students were allowed to eat fruit and drink tea. There was no dinner.
After the snack break, was another hour-long meditation, then a discourse where we were to watch Goenka lecturing—the only entertainment of the day. Then more meditation—45 minutes. Bedtime was 9:30 pm. Lights were to be out by 10 pm. With the first wake-up gong sounding at 4:15 in the morning, and nothing to do in the evenings, I doubted that the early bedtime would be a problem.
The first thing I did was count: eleven hours of meditation. Each day I was to spend eleven hours sitting on a cushion, keeping my back straight, and watching my breath. Besides eating, and walking in the forest during breaks, that was to be my life for the next ten days. How was I going to handle this?
“I think you’ll make it to day seven and then decide you’ve had enough,” a skeptical friend had told me before I’d left. I’d been insulted. Now I doubted my own convictions. Day Seven seemed very far away.
Most of my friends had told me that they’d wanted to leave by Day Three.
By Day Two, however, I was done. My legs and back ached and, halfway through the second day, I decided that I couldn’t do another second of meditation. “I can’t do this anymore!” I exclaimed in my head. Besides Goenka’s, the Voice in My Head was the only voice I’d had access to for the last two days. And it happened to be mistaken. I kept on.
During my 32 years on the planet, I don’t believe I’d spent a day without communicating in some way, shape or form with another human being. Since I could put words together, I hadn’t spent a day in silence. Since I could read and write, there wasn’t a day in which I hadn’t engaged with some form of written text.
I missed it. While taking bathroom breaks, I stared intently at the sign outlining the shower rules. I fascinatedly read about using the hair catcher while showering. I read how we were to clean it out after and dump any hairs in the garbage. I studied the rules about drying and squigeeing the shower walls after use. “With Metta,” The notice signed off. With Metta. Withmettawithmettawithmetta. I read the words over and over again. Bathroom reading. It might as well have been War and Peace.
I expected the days to soak me in serene silence. I was wrong. As it turned out, my head was louder than an elementary school cafeteria during lunch hour. But, unlike the lunch break, there was no end to the noise.
“I eat brown food in the morning with brown tea and green food for lunch with green tea,” My inner monologue babbled gaily. It was true: breakfast was always oatmeal and prunes, which I accompanied with black tea. Lunch was a green salad and some soup or curry. I ate it with green tea. “Maybe I can be vegan,” The Voice in My Head chattered, optimistically, “The food here is so good. I could eat like this all the time. I don’t even miss dinner! Maybe I should start doing more intermittent fasting. I wonder if they sell a recipe book, oh, I can’t wait for breakfast tomorrow morning!”
And, “What colour pants am I going to wear tomorrow? The brown ones or the black ones? Brown or black? Black or brown? Should I wear the brown ones with the white shirt and the black ones with the blue shirt? Or the blue ones with the—” I’ll spare you the rest.
I had entire conversations with people in my head. I wrote, rewrote, and edited monologues, conversations and imaginary dramas. I crafted responses from the characters I was arguing with. I practiced my lines and honed them.
I humbly discovered that it was not a chaotic world, filled with sensory distractions, that stifled some creative genius locked somewhere within; the chaos was removed and no genius emerged. Instead, when left to its own devices, my mind became a shallow simpleton bouncing senselessly to topics like the clothes I was wearing, the things I was eating, and people I was dating. How disappointing.
During the eleven hours of meditation, my mind and body rebelled. Every itch, twitch and irritation, mental or physical, would send me crossing and uncrossing my legs, refolding my hands, opening my eyes, and stretching my neck—anything to avoid actually meditating.
My only reprieve was meal times. I would wait for them, like Pavlov’s dog, salivating in anticipation of the gong that would release me from the hell of sitting.
On Day Three, however, I noticed something different. I was sitting in meditation and I wanted to move: do something, like cross my legs a different way. I felt tension and frustration rise within as I resisted the urge. The resistance was like a boulder to push against. It had edges, viscosity. I couldn’t push anymore. I relaxed, softened. I opened.
And with that, the resistance popped. I felt immediate relief.
It was as if my mind and body were wrapped in a crumpled fabric. Each knot and wrinkle resembled an agitation, a restlessness, a mania that arose from within my physical and emotional self. Pushing up against these wrinkles would only tighten them, causing more agitation. But, when I began to breathe, to dissolve their solidity, they began to soften, and pop, like bubble wrap. The fabric began to iron out. I was calm.
I started to notice bigger knots: my relationship with uncertainty, for instance, that seemed too monstrous to pop, however the mini bubbles of impatience started to disappear as they arose, one by one.
Openness.
Openness provides relief from suffering.
Maybe I could survive this.
On Day Three Impatience and I got to know each other. Impatience has been a theme in my life, a low-level agitation that manifests in restlessness: my desire to connect on social media, to distract with technology and day-dreaming, to tweeze hairs and do dishes instead of doing work, and to lurch through life with my head pushed forward, oblivious to my surroundings.
I moved through life like I ate: inhaling a fresh spoonful before swallowing the first. I wasn’t tasting my food. I wasn’t tasting life.
During one particularly turbulent moment in meditation, when a wave of impatience hit, so did a series of images: family weddings, babies being born, pets passing away, family members passing: images of events that had not yet occurred, but almost certainly would. I was racing towards the future, which would bring me both wonderful experiences and inevitable pain. And, of course, at the end of it all would be the end of me. What was the rush?
I brought my attention back to my breath. Some more knots in my mind’s fabric opened.
On Day Four I recognized that, at the heart of this impatience was a craving for certainty. Underneath that craving: fear.
What I am afraid of? I asked the blackness.
Almost immediately, from some depths of my psyche, the answer surfaced.
I’m afraid to suffer.
Suffering, the Buddha’s first Nobel Truth. Life is suffering, or Dukkha. Like every other being who had ever lived, as long as I was alive I would suffer. If I craved certainty, then this was it.
We began to practice Vipassana on Day Four. For the past three days, my entire world had been reduced to the rim of my nostrils where my breath passed. The technique of focussing on the breath at the nostrils is called Anapana, and its goal is to sharpen and focus the mind.
Vipassana, or the development of equanimity regarding the impermanence of nature, and the truth of suffering, focusses on body sensations. We first began to scan the body from the tips of the toes to the top of the head (“Staaart from. the. topofthehead. Top of. Thehead,” Chirped Goenka’s voice on the recordings), a relatively simple technique in theory that proved to be excruciating in practice.
If the first few days had introduced me to the manifest agitations and disquiets in my body and mind, Day Four presented me with the full-on war raging within. For three hours a day we were to resist the urge to move. My body was on fire.
Demons in my head commanded me to move, get up, scream. Others shouted at me to stay still. Still others urged me to quit. Amidst their shouts was harrowing physical misery.
I felt like I was under the Cruciatus Curse. In fact, the whole retreat was starting to seem like a JK Rowling novel, or some other Hero’s Journey. I had set out to conquer evil only to find that all evil came from within, and was now being asked to face it bravely, conjuring up a Patronus of equanimity to protect me from being consumed by this hellish fire.
“The only difference between a Ten-Day Silent Vipassana Retreat and a Harry Potter novel is that ‘He Who Must Not Be Named’ is literally everything,” I thought, sardonically.
From Days Four to Five, I emerged from every sitting broken and exhausted. Being on Day Five was like reaching the middle of a claustrophobic tunnel. I was halfway through and still had just as far to go. I scanned the deadpan faces of the crowd during mealtimes to see if anyone else had spent the last hour being electrocuted.
Goenka said the sensations of fire and electricity were Sankaras, mental cravings that embed themselves in our physical bodies and cause suffering. An intense sensation was simply one of these Sankaras floating to the surface of the body. If we met it with “perfect equanimity”, it would be eradicated, and we would be cleared out for our next incarnation.
These body sensations—the sharp, twitching, numb, searing, blinding, and even pleasurable— were a representation of nature itself. Sensations arise in the body and pass away; they are impermanent, Anitya. Through first being aware of them, and then meeting them with openness, without clinging or aversion, we can be free from suffering.
“Maintain perrrrrrfect equanimity. Perrrrrrfect equanimity, with the understanding of Anitya.
“Anitya…. Anitya….” Goenka’s recordings crooned.
Sapiens author Yuval Noah Harari, also a long-time Vipassana practitioner, states, “Meditation is about getting to know the most ordinary, daily, natural patterns of the mind, body and emotions, to observe reality as it is. If you can observe, to some degree, reality as it is, without running away to stories and fictions, you will be a more peaceful and happy person.”
Well, I certainly wasn’t happy.
On Day Five I was being burned at the stake. Someone had lodged a red hot poker into my right flank, just to mess with me. “I will never be able to walk again,” My mind blabbered, “This is torture. I’m becoming permanently injured. I can feel the meniscus in my knees slowly tearing—“
Goenka’s chanting began, indicating we had five more minutes of this hell. I relaxed, even though we still had five more minutes of this hell. The mind is a ridiculous thing.
—Donnnnng….
Freed by the beautiful, beautiful music of the gong, I sprang up. I expected to hobble, in pain, clutching at my back, working out stiffness in my knees. I anticipated the inevitable sharp pain that would appear in my ankles as I took my first step.
Yet, as I walked out of the meditation hall to stand in the July sun, I noticed that there was not a twinge of pain, a tightness, nor an ache to be found. My body felt perfectly fine. On the contrary, I actually felt great: light and supple. It felt like I was floating.
Hm.
By the time Day Six arrived, I was greeting the pain like an old friend. I noticed that discomfort came, not from the sensations themselves, but from the mind’s anticipation of and resistance to them. If I expected an arising sensation to be painful, I would brace myself against it, creating tension. And, after the sensation had faded, my mind would still grip it, creating a story of aversion.
So, I stopped calling it pain. Instead, it was a series of sensations: numbness, vibration, tingling, spark, heat, radiation, burning, but not pain. I noticed the sensations that disappeared as soon as they materialized, like shooting stars across my back. Others were solid, like clumps of cement hanging out in my body for the entire hour. I now easily sat for an hour without moving, watching this orchestra of sensations transpire across my flesh.
The war was ending. I was winning.
I was free.
Four days to go.
Anitya.
Sometimes impermanence isn’t fast enough.
On Day Seven, I settled into meditation, welcoming it now. I dropped into my breath, and began practicing Vipassana, sweeping my attention over my body, observing the sensations that were present, just as Goenka instructed.
Curiously, the sensations dissolved. There was no sensation, there were no Sankaras, there was no body. I could still feel the line where my lips met, and where my hands came together in my lap. Other than these two black outlines drawn in space, I had dissolved into ether, the atoms of my body emitting a subtle vibration that merged with those that surrounded it.
It wasn’t surprising. For the last seven days I’d been eating oatmeal and meditating in the woods without speaking to anyone. Now my entire body was evaporating. Nothing was surprising anymore.
I later learned that this phenomenon was called a “Free Flow”. It results from absolute openness: from a mind that is both equanimous and subtle. Solidity dissolves, and what is left is the vibration of atoms, all transient, anitya. All impersonal, Anatta.
The Three Buddhist Marks: Anitya, Anatta, Dukkha.
Impermanence, Non-Self, Suffering.
Now that I was One with, whatever it was I was one with, I figured I might as well seek some spiritual answers. Or at least make a wish or something.
I thought of what I most wanted in the world. “I want connection,” I told the Universe, “I want deep, connected relationship.”
Amidst the vibrations, something answered. A simple, Why?
Hm. Why, indeed? I’d never entertained the question.
I want to be loved, emerged my answer, from I-didn’t-know-exactly-where, since I was currently nothing. It was like my heart was speaking instead of my head. The utterance arose out of space, before dissipating, like smoke rings from a caterpillar’s hookah. Then, there was silence.
The energy, or entity, or my Higher Self, whoever I was talking to, seemed amused at my naivety. I could feel her compassionate chuckle vibrating into the atoms that buzzed where my body had once sat.
You already are,
the amused response manifested from the darkness into which I was dispersed.
You already are.
And, at that moment, nothing seemed more true. Nothing can give us what is already in our basic nature.
Gorf is a man of his age, which, in his case, happens to be the Stone Age.
Yes, Gorf is a caveman.
And, perplexingly, Gorf suffers from insomnia.
Gorf wakes up sluggish, long after the sun has risen, wishing he had a snooze button to smash.
He struggles through the day, exhausted. In the early afternoon, he sucks glycogen from the raw meat of a fresh kill to get an extra blood sugar boost.
Gorf prays for someone to discover coffee and refined sugars so that he can join the ranks of modern zombies getting through their 3 pm slumps with artificial pick-me-ups.
When the sun sets, Gorf feels depleted, but also restless and wired. He frustratedly tosses on his bed of mammoth skins beside the dying embers of his campfire while his family snoozes on.
Wide awake at 2 am, Gorf knows that the next morning he’ll begin the cycle again, his body completely out of sync with the Earth’s rhythms. Such is the cursed life of a Prehistoric Insomniac.
If this story seems preposterous, it’s because it probably is. Whatever we imagine prehistoric humans to be, insomniacs is not high on the list.
Those of us who have spent a night outside—whether it was a weekend camping trip or longer—might remember how deeply we slept under the darkness of the starry night sky and how refreshed we woke when the sun began to warm our faces in the early morning.
The closer we get to nature, the better our bodies seem to align with the Earth’s light and dark rhythms.
Now, if we took poor Gorf, dressed him in a suit, and dumped him in a desk chair in an office building in any major modern city, we might believe his claim to insomnia.
Now that Gorf is one of us, his eyes are exposed to bright lights at night as he slogs away at his computer, answering emails, or surfing social media pages into the late hours.
During the day, Gorf now spends his time indoors, where light exposure is 400 times less than that of a bright sunny day.
On bright days when he has a chance to get outside, Gorf protects his fragile eyes with dark glasses.
Welcome to the modern industrial lifestyle, Gorf. Don’t forget to help yourself to the coffee and cookies.
Our Body’s Circadian Rhythms
Our body runs on a 24 hour clock, which is orchestrated by an area in the hypothalamus of the brain called the Suprachiasmatic Nucleus (which we will refer to as “the SCN” from now on).
Our organs, body tissues and cellular processes, from our digestive function, hormones, mood, body temperature, metabolism, sleepiness and wakefulness, cellular repair, to detoxification, among others, have different objectives for certain times of day. The SCN coordinates these functions with the Earth’s daily cycles.
The SCN runs without the aid of outside influence, however several zeitgebers, German for “time givers”, or environmental cues, tell our internal clock what time of day it is to sync our internal and external worlds. The most important zeitgeber is light, which directly activates the SCN through a pathway that connects the retina in our eyes to the hypothalamus (the retinohypothalamic tract).
In our bodies, timing is everything. The more we are able to sync our cycles with the environment, the better our body organs function. Working against circadian rhythms by engaging in activities like sleeping and eating at the wrong time of day can negatively affect our health, decrease our lifespan, and make us miserable (like poor, sad Gorf in his dimly lit office).
The digestive system, for example, is wired to break down, absorb and convert food energy into fuel during the day and repair and regenerate itself at night.
At night, the pineal gland, located in the brain, releases melatonin, a hormone produced in the absence of light, to help us sleep. However, exposure to bright lights before bed can impede the natural release of melatonin, preventing restful sleep.
Science shows that healthy circadian rhythms equal optimal metabolic health, cognitive function, weight, energy levels, cardiovascular health, immune function, digestive health, coordination and mental health. Regulating our circadian rhythms can increase our health-span.
Our Liver, Muscles and Adrenal Glands Also Have Clocks
While the SCN is the chief executive officer of the circadian cycle, other organs, such as the liver, muscle and adrenal glands, help regulate our body’s rhythms through peripheral clocks.
These clocks register cues from the environment and report back to the SCN.In turn, the SCN tells the organs what jobs they are supposed to be performing according to the time of day.
Dr. Satchin Panda, PhD, a researcher at the Salk Institute, is discovering how important our eating times are for setting our circadian clock.
The first bite of our breakfast tells our liver clock to start making the enzymes and hormones necessary to digest our food, regulate our metabolism, and use the food we eat throughout the day to fuel our cells.
A few hours later, our digestive system requires relief from food intake to invest its resources into repair rather than spending precious resources on digesting food.
Dr. Panda found that restricting a “feeding window” to 8 to 12 hours in mice and human participants (for example, eating breakfast at 7 am and finishing dinner no later than 7 pm), allowed the system to digest optimally, left time for the system to repair itself at night, and also acted as a powerful circadian regulator.
New research suggests that food is a potent zeitgeber, which has the power to regulate our circadian rhythms. This suggests that eating at the right time of day can heal our adrenal glands and sleep cycles.
Fasting for 10 to 16 hours at night, or “Time Restricted Eating”, helps optimize health and increase lifespan in mice. In human participants, it improves sleep and results in modest weight loss.
According to Dr. Panda, we become more insulin resistant at night, which means that late-night snacking makes us more likely to store the calories we consume as fat.
Consuming calories in a state of insulin resistance can also predispose use to metabolic syndrome and type II diabetes.
In addition to light and food intake, rest and movement are important zeitgebers. Therefore, engaging in these activities at the right time of day has the potential to promote physical and mental health.
Circadian Rhythms and the Stress Response are Tightly Connected.
If the internet is any indicator, it seems that everyone is suffering from the modern illness of “adrenal fatigue”, or HPA (Hypothalamic-Pituitary-Adrenal) axis dysfunction
Because of the stress of our modern lifestyles, our adrenal glands and brains are no longer able to regulate the stress response.
This leads to a host of symptoms that wreck havoc on the entire body: fatigue, anxiety, sugar cravings, and insomnia. It also negatively impacts digestion, hormone production, and mood.
Our adrenal glands make cortisol, the “stress hormone”, a hormone involved in long-term stress adaptation but also in wakefulness, motivation, reward, and memory.
Deficiencies in cortisol signalling can result in issues with inflammation and depression. Too much cortisol floating around in the body can cause weight gain, cardiovascular issues, such as hypertension, and metabolic syndrome.
Cortisol has a circadian rhythm of its own. Our cortisol levels rise within an hour of waking; 50% of the total cortisol for the day is released in the first 30 minutes after we open our eyes. This rise in cortisol wakes us up. It allows us to perform our daily activities in a state of alert wakefulness.
Cortisol levels decline steadily throughout the day, dipping in the evening when melatonin rises.
A flattened or delayed rise in morning cortisol results in grogginess, brain fog and altered HPA axis function throughout the day. Elevated cortisol in the evening cause us to feel “tired and wired” and affect sleep. Waking at night, especially in the early morning between 2 and 4 am can be due to cortisol spikes.
Our adrenal glands help regulate our circadian rhythms through the production of cortisol. Both the adrenals and the SCN communicate with each other as early as 2 in the morning to ready the system to generate the waking response a few hours later.
Psychiatrist Dr. Charles Raison, MD says, “The most stressful thing you do most days is get up in the morning. Your body prepares for it for a couple of hours [before waking by activating] the stress system. The reason more people die at dawn [than any other time] is because it’s really rough to get up.”
Waking up is a literal stress on the body.
However, we need the stress response to get through our day effectively and healthy HPA axis function and optimal mood and energy are a result of properly functioning circadian rhythms.
Without these rhythms functioning properly we feel tired, groggy, tense, and depressed. Like Gorf, we need sugar and caffeine to help us through the day.
Circadian Rhythms Affect Our Mental Health
In nearly everyone I work with who suffers from anxiety, depression, or other mental health disorders, I see disrupted circadian rhythms and HPA axises.
Many of my patients feel exhausted during the day and wired at night. They have trouble getting up in the morning (or stay in bed all day) and postpone their bedtime. Most of them skip breakfast due to lack of hunger, and crave sweets after dinner, which further throws off the circadian cycle.
Lack of sleep can disrupt circadian rhythms leading to obesity, depression, diabetes and cardiovascular disease. Even two nights of shortened sleep can affect cortisol production and the HPA axis, worsening mood and energy levels.
Depression severity on the Hamilton Depression Rating Scale (HDRS) falls by 6 full points when sleep is restored, which is enough to bring a patient from moderate/severe depression to mild. In comparison, the standard medication SSRIs, like cipralex, only drop the HDRS by 2.
Bipolar disorder is particularly affected by a misaligned circadian clock. In an interview, Dr. Raison claims that a single night of missed sleep has brought on episodes of mania in his bipolar patients. Their moods level once the sleep cycle is restored.
Our mood is tightly connected to our circadian rhythms and sleep.
Circadian Rhythms and Chinese Medicine
Thousands of years ago, the Chinese developed the Theory of Yin and Yang to describe the dynamics nature, including the cycles of night and day.
Yin and yang (symbolized by a black-and-white circle with dots) represent the process of change and transformation of everything in the universe.
Yang, represented by the white part of the circle, is present in things that are hot, light, awake, moving, exciting, changing, transforming and restless.
Yin is present in material that is cold, dark, soft, inhibited, slow, restful, conversative, and sustaining.
Yin and yang are dependent on each other. Yin feeds into yang, while yang feeds and transforms into yin. Everything in nature consists of a fluctuating combination of these two states.
The circadian cycle transforms the yin night into the yang of daytime.
Yang zeitgebers such as food, light, and physical and mental activity, help stimulate yang in the body, which helps us feel energized, light and motivated.
Before bed, yin zeitgebers like darkness, rest and relaxation help our bodies transition into the yin of night, so that we can sleep restfully.
Lack of sleep and relaxation can deplete our body’s yin energy, causing yin deficiency. Individuals with yin deficiency feel fatigued, anxious, and hot, experiencing night sweats, hot flashes, and flushed skin. Conventionally, yin deficiency can look like burnout compounded by anxiety, or peri-menopause.
Out-of-sync circadian rhythms can result in yang deficiency resulting in morning grogginess, an insufficient rise in morning cortisol, and a failure to activate yang energy throughout the day.
Yang deficiency is characterized by the build-up of phlegm in the body, leading to weight gain, feelings of sluggishness, slow digestion, bloating, weakness, and feeling foggy, pale and cold. Yang deficiency symptoms can look like depression, chronic fatigue syndrome, IBS, estrogen dominance, hypothyroidism, or obesity and metabolic syndrome.
In Chinese medicine, the organs have specific times of activity as well.
The stomach is most active from 7 to 9 am, when we eat our breakfast, the most important meal of the day according to Traditional Chinese doctors. The spleen (which in Traditional Chinese Medicine operates much like the Western pancreas) is active from 9 to 11 am, converting the food energy from breakfast into energy that can be utilized by the body.
According to the Chinese organ clock, the liver is active from 1 to 3 am. Individuals with chronic stress, insomnia and irritability, sometimes called “Liver Qi Stagnation”, frequently wake up restless during those early morning hours.
Entraining our circadian clock with environmental cues can help us remain vital by balancing the flow and transformation of yin and yang energies in the body.
Healing the Circadian Clock:
When I work with patients with depression, anxiety and other mental health conditions, or hormonal conditions such as HPA axis dysfunction, one of our goals is to heal circadian rhythms.
This involves coordinating our internal rhythms with the Earth’s night and dark cycle by setting up a series of routines that expose the body to specific zeitgebers at certain times of day.
How to Heal Your Circadian Rhythms
Morning Activities: Increasing Yang with movement, light and food:
1. Expose your eyes to bright light between the hours of 6 and 8 am. This stimulates the SCN and the adrenal glands to produce cortisol, which boosts mood, energy and wakefulness in the morning and can help reset the HPA axis.
2. Have a large breakfast high in protein and fat within an hour of waking. The intake of a meal that contains all of the macronutrients wakes up the liver clock. This activates our metabolism, digestive function, blood sugar regulation, and HPA axis.
Consider eating 3 eggs, spinach and an avocado in the morning. Or consume a smoothie with avocado, MCT oil, protein powder, berries and leafy greens.
Eating a breakfast that contains at least 20 grams of protein and a generous serving of fat will help stabilize blood sugar and mood throughout the day while obliterating night-time sugar cravings.
3. Move a little in the morning. Morning movement doesn’t necessarily have to come in the form of exercise, however, it’s important to get up and start your routine, perhaps making breakfast and tidying, or having an alternate hot and cold shower (1 minute hot bursts alternating with 30 seconds cold for 3 to 5 cycles).
Muscle movement triggers another important peripheral clock that helps entrain our circadian cycle with the day.
4. Turn on lights in the morning, especially in the winter time. Spend time outside during the day, and avoid using sunglasses unless absolutely necessary so that light can stimulate the SCN. Consider investing in a sunlamp for the winter, particularly if you suffer from seasonal affective disorder.
5. Consume most of your supplements in the morning, with breakfast. Taking adaptogens (herbs that help reset the HPA axis) and B vitamins can help promote daytime energy and rebalance our morning cortisol levels. This, of course, depends on why you’re naturopathic doctor has recommended specific supplements, so be sure to discuss supplement timing with her first.
Night Routine: Increasing Yin with dark and stillness:
1. Maintain a consistent sleep and wake time, even on the weekends. Retraining the cycles starts with creating a consistent routine to get your sleep cycle back on track.
2. Try to get to bed before 11pm. This allows the body to reach the deepest wave of sleep around 2 am. It also allows for 7 to 8 hours of continuous sleep when you expose your eyes to bright lights at 6 to 8 am, when cortisol naturally rises. Of course, this sleep routine will vary depending on personal preferences, lifestyles and genetics.
It’s important to first establish a routine that will allow you to get at least 6 hours of continuous sleep a night. If you suffer from chronic insomnia, working with a naturopathic doctor can help you reset your circadian cycle using techniques like Sleep Restriction Therapy to get your body back on track.
3. Avoid electronic use at least an hour before bed. Our smartphones, tablets, computers and TVs emit powerful blue light that activates our SCN, confusing all of our body’s clocks. Blue light also suppresses melatonin release, making us feel restless and unable to fall asleep.
For those of you who must absolutely be on electronics in the late hours of the evening, consider investing in blue light-blocking glasses, or installing an app that block blue light, such as F.lux, on your devices. These solutions are not as effective as simply turning off electronics and switching to more relaxing bedtime activities, but can be a significant form of harm reduction.
4. Fast for at least 2 to 3 hours before bed. Avoid late-night snacking to give the body a chance to rest and to signal to the peripheral digestive clocks, such as the liver clock, that it’s now time to rest and repair, rather than digestive and assimilate more food.
Avoiding food, especially carbohydrate-rich food, at night can also manage blood sugar. A drop in blood sugar is often a reason why people wake in the early hours of the morning, as blood sugar drops spike cortisol, which wake us up and off-set our entire circadian system.
5. Engage in relaxing activities in dim lighting. Turn off powerful overhead lights, perhaps lighting candles or dim reading lights, and engage in at least 30 minutes of an activity that feels restorative and relaxing to you. This might include taking an epsom salt bath, reading a book while enjoying an herbal tea, doing yoga or meditation, or cuddling with a partner.
Taking this time helps us step out of the busyness of the day and signals to the body and its clocks that it’s time to sleep.
6. Take nighttime supplements before bed. I often recommend sleep-promoting supplements like prolonged-release melatonin (which is a powerful circadian rhythm and HPA axis resetter), magnesium or phosphatidylserine, before bed to help my patients’ bodies entrain to the time of day. Talk to your ND about what supplements might be right for you.
If you suffer from chronic stress and mood disorders, do shift work, or are dealing with jet lag, you may need to engage in these routines diligently for a few months to get your circadian cycles back on track.
These practices can also be beneficial at certain times of year: daylight savings time, periods of stress and heightened mental work, and the transition of seasons, especially early Spring and Fall.
Finally, consider working with a naturopathic doctor to obtain and individual plan that can help you reset your body’s rhythms.
I will die in here today, I thought to myself, as I sat hunched and cramped in an oven-hot temazcal, or sweat lodge, somewhere on the Mexican pacific.
The straw flap covering the opening of our sweaty mud hut was thrown off momentarily by someone outside, flooding our hellish cave with light. I gazed hopefully at the entrance: were we getting water? Were they letting in fresh air? Was it finally over?
It was none of those things. Instead of relief, they were increasing the heat; a pile of hot rocks appeared at the door.
“Gracias, Abuelita“, said our leader, Marciano, receiving a giant steaming rock with metal tongs and pulling it inside the hut. The change in temperature was immediate. The heat coming off the rocks was like fire. I struggled to breathe.
Marciano is Spanish for martian, abuelita an affectionate term for “grandmother”. Did he know what he was doing, this martian? Was there even enough oxygen in here for all of us? I am not related to these rocks, I thought.
“Gracias, Abuelita,” We numbly replied, thanking the rocks and fanning ourselves with imaginary cool air.
The hut was crowded with ten people. I had to sit hunched over and there was no space to lie down. If I wanted to leave, everyone else would have to get out first. The combination of darkness, stifling humidity, claustrophobic quarters and angry heat was almost intolerable. Sweat was pouring so profusely off my body that I had become one with it.
Every cell of my body was on fire with craving: water, space to lie down, fresh oxygen, freedom.
Whenever I thought I couldn’t stand another moment, the heat intensified.
The tiny flap in the door opened again. Another grandmother rock from Mars? No, it was water! My heart flooded with gratitude until I realized that the tiny glass being passed around was for all of us to share.
I will die in here.
I will never again complain of ice and snow.
This is supposed to be therapeutic?
When it was over, I emerged gasping desperately for air and water. After chugging a bucketful of water, I dumped another on my scorching hot skin. I swear it emitted a hiss.
I had survived! However, as my body cooled, I realized that I had done more than survive. Despite my resistance throughout its entirety, the sweat lodge had left me feeling absolutely elevated.
The feelings of energized calm lasted well into the next few days. My brain seemed to work better, evidenced by an elevation in the fluency of my Spanish.
It was amazing.
Current research shows that heat therapy, like sweat lodges and saunas, can indeed be therapeutic. Subjecting the body to high temperatures can improve the symptoms of major depressive disorder as effectively as the leading conventional therapies, such as medication.
Intrigued by the cultural practices of using intense heat to induce transcendental spiritual experiences (the Native American sweat lodges and Central American temazcales, for instance), a psychiatrist name Dr. Charles Raison decided to investigate heat as a therapy for improving mental and emotional well-being.
Raison and his team, in their 2016 JAMA Psychiatry study, took 60 randomized individuals suffering from major depressive disorder, and subjected them to a standardized questionnaire, the Hamilton Depression Rating Scale (HDRS), which quantifies depressive symptoms. The treatment group received Whole Body Hyperthermia, an average of 107 minutes in an infrared heating chamber that heats core body temperatures to 38.5 degrees celsius.
The placebo group spent the same amount of time in an unheated box that was nearly identical (complete with red lights and whirring fans). 71.5% of the study participants who were put in the sham heating chamber believed that they were receiving the full heat therapy.
After one week of receiving the single session of heat therapy, the active group experienced a 6 point drop on the HDRS. This decrease outperformed even the standard anti-depressant treatment, selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitor medications (according to a 2017 meta-analysis SSRI medications drop patients only 2 points on the HDRS), and lasted for 6 weeks.
Previous fMRI research has shown that heat sensing pathways in the skin can activate brain areas associated with elevated mood, such as the anterior cingulate cortex (the ACC is also activated during mindfulness meditation). The raphe nucleus, which releases serotonin, our “happy hormone”, is also activated by this skin-to-brain thermoregulatory pathway.
Heat is also thought to calm immune system activation present in the brains of individuals suffering from depression. People with depression tend to have higher body temperatures than non-depressed people. This is possibly due to the present of inflammatory cytokines, such as TNF-a and IL-6, that increase inflammation and fever and have been shown to negatively impact mood. Perhaps heat therapy acts by “resetting” the immune system.
Furthermore, when the body is exposed to high temperatures, it results in the release of heat shock proteins. Heat shock proteins respond to short, intense stressors: hot, cold, and even fasting conditions. They have a variety of effects on our hormonal systems. Some can reset the body’s stress response, correcting the cortisol resistance that is present in the brains of depressed individuals. One particular heat shock protein, HSP105, has been shown to prevent depression and increase neurogenesis (the creation of new brain cells) in mice.
Reduced neurogenesis in the hippocampus is a risk factor and side effect of depression. It is thought that traditional anti-depressants, in addition to altering brain levels of serotonin, may exert some of their effects through inducing brain-derived neurotrophic factor (BNDF), a growth factor that encourages the development of new brain cells.
Conventional theories tell us that depression is a disorder resulting from a chemical imbalance in the brain requiring medication to “correct” that imbalance. However, an overwhelming amount of research tells us that this is simply incorrect: depression is a complicated condition stemming from multiple causes.
Naturopathic doctors focus on the whole person. We look at how an individual’s symptoms are expressed within the context of their biology, physiology, psychology, and social and physical environments. We know that, when it comes to a condition like depression, every body system is affected. We also know that the health of our digestive and hormonal systems are essential for optimal mood.
Naturopathic doctors have also traditionally used hydrotherapy, the therapeutic application of hot and cold water, to benefit digestion, boost detoxification pathways, and regulate the immune system.
Therefore, as a naturopathic doctor, the idea that heat exposure can have a profound effect on depressive symptoms makes sense. However, as a clinician, I’ve found it difficult to convince my patients suffering from depression to try heat therapy. Perhaps it’s because the remedy seems so simple it borders on insulting—sweat for an hour and experience profound changes to a condition that has debilitated me for months? Get out of here.
I get it.
However, research suggests that since depression is a multi-factorial condition, it deserves to be addressed with a variety of therapies: diet, sleep hygiene, exercise, nutrition, and psychotherapy, to name a few. Heat therapy can be another important one.
So, here are some suggestions for implementing heat therapy without having to do a sweat lodge:
If you have access to a sauna, us it! Alternate 15 to 20 minute stints that induce sweating with 60-second cold rinses in a shower. Cycle back and forth for up to an hour.
Go to a hot yoga class a few times a month.
Exercise. Exercise has been shown to induce temperature changes that are similar to heat therapy. This may be why exercise has been so well studied for its mental health benefits.
Take epsom salt baths regularly. Add 1 to 2 cups of epsom salts to a warm bath and soak for 20 minutes or more, or to the point of sweating.
Try Alternate Hot and Cold Showers: alternate between one-minute bursts of hot water and 30-seconds of cold for about 3 to 5 cycles.
Self-compassion is the act of treating yourself as you would any other loved one: treating yourself with kindness vs. Self-Judgment.
Self compassion is a modality that is being researched for treatments for mental health conditions, preventing burnout, improving motivation, body image, resilience, and in clinical settings for the helping professions.
The leading expert on self-compassion, Kristen Neff, PhD, defines self-compassion in three ways:
Mindfulness
Invoking a sense of common humanity
Self-acceptance vs. self-judgement
This 3 minute self compassion break can be done in a moment of difficulty, such as in the presence of strong emotions, physical sensations, self-criticizing thoughts, or in the face of failure. It can be done on a daily basis or when difficulty is present.
Step 1:
Adopt a posture that invokes a sense of self compassion. The posture to adopt is traditionally placing hands on the heart, but can also be hands placed on the neck, or a mudra. Touch releases oxytocin, our “love hormone” which releases feelings of calm, love and connection, even when it’s our own hands being placed on our own body.
Step 2:
Either to yourself, or out loud, say these three sentences.
This is a moment of suffering. This is mindfulness, acknowledging that suffering is present and turning towards, as opposed to turning away from difficulty.
Suffering is a part of life. Other alternatives to this are: other people feel this way. This is invoking the sense of common humanity, reminding yourself that you are not alone and other people on earth have felt or are currently feeling this way.
May I give myself the compassion I need. This is setting an intention to be kinder to oneself. Other alternatives are: may I be kind to myself, or may I try to accept myself as I am.
For more on Self-Compassion, to access more of Kirsten Neff’s research, and for free resources, visit selfcompassion.org
In order to make sense of the world, people create stories. It is our greatest gift and most fragile weakness.
Boy meets girl, they fall in love, they encounter difficulties that they eventually overcome. It brings them closer. They live happily ever after—the classic love story.
Stress has a classic story too: cortisol, the “stress” hormone, is released during stress. It wreaks havoc on the body. Lowering stress helps lower cortisol.
However, when it comes to human hormones, telling stories in a linear narrative is impossible.
Hormones are signalling molecules in the body. They are produced by endocrine organs, such as the adrenal glands, the brain, and the ovaries. They travel through the bloodstream to impact the expression of genes on distant tissues, which impacts how our bodies function.
Production of norepinephrine in the adrenal glands as a response to stress can make your heart race, your pupils dilate, your hands to shake, and your senses become hypervigilant—when a perceived threat or danger activates the release of this hormone, your entire body pulsates under its influence.
Hormonal stories are hard to fit the human desire for narratives. Their relationships with our genes, bodily systems, receptor binding sites, and each other make their actions too complicated to be described linearly. Instead they act like webs, or tangled networks of intricate connections.
When hormone levels rise in the body, beyond our delicate homeostatic balance, a phenomenon, called “resistance”, can occur. With resistance, cells reduce their responses to the hormones that interact with them.
When telemarketers keep interrupting your dinner at 6pm, eventually you stop answering the phone.
When certain hormones continue to call at the surface of cells, stressing the body’s capacity to respond, our cells simply stop answering.
Many of us ask, “what happens when I pull this thread here?” when learning about one hormone that we’ve blamed all our woes on. We tug the thread, without considering the entire web of connections, and our actions affect the entire system.
Our hormones exist in an ecosystem where everything hums and flows together, as a unit. It’s impossible to lay out explanations for their actions in a linear fashion.
Hormone stories flow like a Choose Your Own Adventure novel—a hallway with many doors that snake down long corridors and meet again, and interconnect.
Go through the door marked “estrogens”, and you encounter serotonin, cortisol, progesterone, insulin, thyroid hormones, leptin, BDNF, dopamine, norepinephrine, and many others.
Hormones are the conductors of your body’s personal orchestra, composed of thousands of musicians, a complex musical score, highly-trained arms, fingers, and mouths manipulating instruments: a million moving parts working together in harmony.
The best we can do to understand the entire interplay is to slow down the action, take a snapshot of it, and to try to understand why these symptoms are occurring in this individual.
Symptoms of Hormone Imbalances
Because hormones affect absolutely every system of our body, I am always attuned to the possibility of hormonal imbalances in my patients.
It helps to look at hormones in terms of their symptom patterns rather than how any one hormone affects us in particular.
Common signs of hormonal imbalance are:
Fatigue, low libido, restless sleep, depression and anxiety, waking at 2 to 4 am, a high-stress lifestyle, and brain fog might indicate cortisol imbalance.
PMS – and the more severe related condition, PMDD – infertility, fatigue and low libido, missed and irregular periods may be related to fluctuations in the hormones estrogen and progesterone, or low estrogen and progesterone levels. Many of these symptoms could also be related to estrogen dominance, in which estrogen is either high or normal, and progesterone is low.
Endometriosis, a family or personal history of female cancers, anxiety and panic attacks, heavy and painful periods, frequent miscarriages, infertility, fibroids, fibrocystic breasts and weight gain around the hips and thighs can indicate estrogen dominance.
High levels of male sex hormones like testosterone, irregular periods, weight gain, acne, and hair loss may indicate a female hormone condition called PCOS.
Fatigue, brain fog, difficulty losing weight, puffiness, constipation, dry skin and hair, and low body temperature can be signs of hypothyroidism.
Symptoms of reactive hypoglycemia, such as feeling dizzy, anxious and shaky between meals, sugar cravings, weight gain around the abdomen, difficulty losing weight, and low morning appetite, night-time carbohydrate cravings, and binge eating can all be related to insulin resistance and poor blood sugar control.
In my naturopathic practice, I see common patterns of symptoms that indicate certain hormonal imbalances.
These patterns often represent vicious cycles where our body is stressed beyond a capacity to balance these interconnected webs of chemical interactions, causing further imbalance.
Cortisol
Speaking of stories, here’s one I hear often.
You wake up in the morning, exhausted. Your brain is in a fog and you don’t feel alive until a cold shower or double espresso knock you out of your stupor.
Things get a bit better once you get moving, but you wonder why your energy never fully bounces back.
You used to play sports in university, you think to yourself. Now just thinking of sports makes you tired.
Is this what getting older feels like? You’re in your 30s.
The days at the office stretch on forever. Concentration and focus are difficult. You see a coworker whose name, you realize with horror, can’t be brought to mind.
You’ve known her for a year. Cynthia? Sylvia? Your brain hurts.
In the afternoon you think longingly of napping, but instead take your place in the long line for coffee and something carb-y like a cookie.
When it comes time for sleep you are either out like a light or find it hard to turn your mind off; you’re tired, as always, but also wired.
Sleep doesn’t feel restful, and you often wake up, sleepless, at 2-4am in the morning.
When your alarm rings a few hours later, the cycle begins again.
Cortisol, one of our stress hormones, has a circadian rhythm. Its levels are highest in the morning, about an hour after waking. Cortisol promotes energy, alertness and focus. It is also a potent anti-inflammatory hormone.
Cortisol is what makes us feel alive in the morning, bouncing out of bed like Shirley Temple and her curls.
Throughout the day our cortisol levels slowly dwindle (unless a major stressor causes them to spike abnormally). They are lowest in the evening, when melatonin, our sleep hormone begins to rise, inducing feelings of sleepiness, preparing us for a night of rest.
Our modern day society, however, calls on cortisol to perform more than its fair share of work. Cortisol is around when we’re hauling ourselves out of bed after an inadequate night of rest.
Cortisol fuels gym workouts, gets us to our meetings on time, allows us to meet deadlines, tolerates traffic jams, responds kindly to tyrannical bosses, and makes sure the kids get to all their after-school events.
Cortisol is made in the adrenal glands, two endocrine glands located on each kidney, in response to signals from the brain that perceive stress in our environments and bodies.
When stress hormones levels are too high we experience a “tired and wired” feeling. During this time we might feel we thrive better under stress: workouts boost our energy, we have a hard time quieting down and we rarely feel hungry.
We might still struggle with weight gain, however, especially the abdomen and face, where cortisol tends to encourage fat deposition.
We might feel tension—tight muscles and shoulders, and body pain, as muscles clench up, preparing to fight or flee.
Chronic stress is associated with high levels of cortisol. We work long hours, late into the night. We go, go, go. This may give us a “high” or it may feel exhausting and depleting.
Many of us can exist in this state for months and even years. Sometimes a compounded stressor such as a divorce, accident, or loss, can tip us over the edge into a depleted, burnt out state.
Burnout, often following a period of prolonged stress, can be associated with low cortisol signalling. Our bodies have simply stopped being able to produce the stress hormones necessary to meet the needs of our daily lives, or glucocorticoid receptors in the brain and body cells, have stopped responding to cortisol.
Just as cell can be become resistant to insulin, they can also become resistant to cortisol. Too much (or even too little) of a hormone can cause cells to start ignoring their signalling, resulting in symptoms of low levels of the hormone in some areas of the body and high levels of the hormone in others.
Cortisol is a complicated molecule. It both encourages the stress response, but also turns it off, when levels reach a certain point.
Often, cortisol levels that are too low result in an impaired stress response, preventing our fight or flight system from properly shutting off—cortisol resistance can lead to further stress hormone disruption.
The result of an imbalance in cortisol, otherwise termed Hypothalamic Pituitary Adrenal (HPA) Axis dysregulation is weight gain, fatigue and brain fog, inflammation and immune system activation, digestive issues, restlessness, impaired sleep, decreased cognitive function, and mental health conditions, such as anxiety and depression.
When cortisol levels are low, the body makes adrenaline and noradrenaline to meet our needs, which often leads to anxiety and feeling shaky and nervous, contributing to symptoms of anxiety.
Cortisol also influences the function of our sex hormones, thyroid hormones, and our blood sugar. Imbalances in any of these other hormonal systems can be a result of an impaired HPA axis.
Cortisol Testing
The two main ways to assess the body’s levels of cortisol are through serum (blood tests) and saliva.
A study found both tests were equal when it came to diagnosing Cushing’s disease, a condition of highly elevated cortisol.
One of the advantages to salivary cortisol testing is the ability to obtain multiple samples in one day to be able to view a patient’s cortisol curve, in which cortisol peaks approximately one hour after waking and declines throughout the day.
The cortisol curve is measured by assessing 4 samples of salivary cortisol taken at 4 key points during the course of one day. It measures free cortisol, which may only represent about 5% of total cortisol in the body.
While salivary cortisol levels can be a good starting point for assessing the cortisol curve, it doesn’t tell us everything about the health of the glucocorticoid receptors or HPA system as a whole.
High cortisol levels may be seen in patients with low cortisol signalling, such as depression, anxiety and chronic fatigue. Errors in obtaining salivary cortisol samples (such as not taking samples at the right time) can lead to falsely low cortisol readings.
In my opinion, this makes symptoms and health history the most valuable tools for properly assessing HPA axis function.
Cortisol and Melatonin
Melatonin, our sleep hormone, also operates on a circadian rhythm. It is released by the pineal gland in the brain and induces sleep. Its release corresponds to a drop in cortisol levels at the end of the day.
That release is impeded by artificial light exposure at night, lack of daytime sun exposure, alcohol, stress, and HPA axis disruption, among other lifestyle and environmental factors.
Melatonin, like other hormones, can be tested for in blood, urine and saliva, but I find more value in assessing for sleep quality and quantity by taking a thorough health history while also restoring a patient’s sleep hygiene and HPA axis regulation.
Many patients with sleep issues can benefit from a trial of supplemental melatonin to see if that helps their sleep. Taking it 2 to 3 hours before bedtime to coincide with the body’s natural melatonin surge and taking a prolonged-release version to promote sleep maintenance are two strategies I use for helping patients sleep better.
Working on sleep and circadian rhythms is also beneficial for restoring HPA axis functioning.
The “Female” Hormones: Estrogen and Progesterone
The most prevalent female sex hormones are estrogen and progesterone. These two hormones eb and flow in distinct ways throughout a woman’s monthly cycle.
Estrogen creates an “M” shape, rising at the beginning of the cycle to its first peak around ovulation, half-way through the cycle. At this time women typically experience their best mood, energy, and motivation, perhaps noticing a rise in libido.
After ovulation, estrogen dips a little bit and then rises, peaking again about a week before a woman’s menstrual cycle is due.
After this, estrogen takes a nosedive, reaching low levels around the time that menstruation begins: Day 1 of the menstrual cycle.
Progesterone, on the other hand is largely absent the first half of the cycle, before ovulation. Then, it begins a steady climb to peak with estrogen, about a week before the arrival of the next period.
After peaking, just like estrogen, progesterone then takes a dip, which stimulates the uterine lining to shed, resulting in menstruation, in which the entire cycle begins again.
PMS and PMDD
My practice is populated by women who experience various forms of grief at different stages of their monthly cycles.
Many of my patients experience PMS, and the more severe PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder)—which is characterized by intense mood swings, irritability, depression, or anxiety, panic attacks and psychosis in the most severe cases— up to two weeks before their periods.
The mood changes in PMS and PMDD are associated with fluctuations in the hormones estrogen and progesterone, which can wreak havoc on our brain chemistry.
Estrogen has a beneficial effect on mood, increasing dopamine and serotonin action in the brain. Dopamine and serotonin are two antidepressant, feel-good neurotransmitters.
Estrogen also increases something called Brain-Derived Neurotrophic Factor (BDNF) a chemical that stimulates the growth of brain cells. This can boost memory, concentration, and cognition, as well as positively influence mood.
Progesterone breaks down into a chemical called allo-pregnenolone, which acts like GABA, a calming neurotransmitter, in the brain. Bioidentical progesterone therapy is often used as a treatment for anxiety and insomnia.
When estrogen and progesterone levels surge and drop suddenly, drastic fluctuations in mood can occur. Cravings for sweets, crying, lack of motivation, or severe anxiety can all occur when hormones drop right before a period is due.
However, elevated levels of estrogen can also be problematic. Estrogen stimulates dopamine, which typically makes us feel good, gives us energy, and helps to motivate us. In genetically vulnerable women, elevated levels of dopamine can cause excess irritability, low stress tolerance, and even mania or psychosis.
Estrogen also slows the recycling of the stress hormones epinephrine and norepinephrine, which can lead to symptoms of acute stress and anxiety, when dysregulated.
This means that dramatic rises and falls in estrogen throughout a woman’s cycle can cause her to feel irritable and anxious one week and unmotivated and depressed the other.
Smoothing out hormonal ups and downs can be a key factor in regulating a woman’s menstrual cycles and soothing her mood and emotions throughout the month.
Perimenopause and Menopause
Perimenopause is characterized by a declining production of the ovarian hormones estrogen and progesterone.
Estrogen levels tend to rise and fall dramatically throughout a woman’s remaining cycles, while progesterone levels tend to stay low.
The result of these changes are symptoms like hot flashes, night sweats, brain fog, fatigue, and depression when estrogen levels suddenly tank, and increased stress and anxiety when estrogen levels abruptly spike.
During this time, cycles may become irregular. Some of my patients comment that their periods are incredibly light one month and the heaviest of their lives another.
Some get periods every few months and some notice increased frequency, even spotting between cycles, or have a full-blown period every two weeks in more extreme cases.
Weight gain tends to drift from the thighs and buttocks to the abdomen. Once pear and hourglass-shaped figures begin to resemble apples.
Fatigue is a common symptom. Women may experience poor sleep due to night sweats from estrogen deficiency, and anxiety from insufficient progesterone.
What a joy, right?
Many of these perimenopausal symptoms are a relatively modern phenomenon, stemming from a dysregulated HPA axis.
After cessation of periods, it’s the job of the adrenal glands to take over sex hormone production. However, if the HPA system is preoccupied with organizing a stress response, this can affect the production of other hormones.
Impaired Estrogen Clearance
Many women struggle with symptoms that are related to relatively high levels of estrogen, often caused by impaired estrogen clearance.
These conditions include heavy and painful periods, fibrocystic breasts, or conditions like fibroids or endometriosis.
Chronically elevated estrogen levels also include a risk of certain hormone-associated cancers, such as breast cancer.
These women may experience irritability and anxiety through estrogen’s interaction with stress hormones, and also from a relative deficiency in progesterone.
A relatively high level of estrogens compared to progesterone is termed “Estrogen Dominance”.
Estrogen is normally cleared through the digestive system: the liver and intestines.
A sluggish and congested liver causing a slower rate of hormonal clearance (think of it like a clogged drain), an increase in environmental toxin exposure, or an overconsumption of alcohol, can slow the liver’s ability to regulate estrogen levels in the body.
Constipation and a dysbiotic gut can also impair estrogen clearance.
Symptoms of estrogen dominance include stubborn weight gain, typically around the hips and thighs, heavy and painful periods, tender and painful breasts, fibrocystic breasts, endometriosis, uterine fibroids, acne, cyclical mood swings, especially premenstrual anxiety and panic attacks, and irregular menstrual cycles.
Low Progesterone
Aside from impaired estrogen clearance, another pattern of estrogen dominance is low progesterone.
In this case, estrogen levels are normal or even low (as in the case of menopausal or perimenopausal women). However, an even lower progesterone level still results in a pattern of relative estrogen dominance.
This can cause some of the same symptoms as excess estrogen (anxiety, irritability, heavy and painful periods, weight gain, PMS, fibroids, fibrocystic breasts, etc.).
Low progesterone can also be a culprit in unexplained infertility or early term miscarriage, as progesterone maintains the uterine lining in pregnancy.
Progesterone is released from the ovaries after ovulation. Lack of ovulation, therefore, is a primary reason for low progesterone levels. Anovulatory cycles can occur in women with polycystic ovarian syndrome, women with high levels of physical and emotional stress, or women entering menopause.
Some progesterone, however, is also made in the adrenal glands, where it can be eventually turned into cortisol, aldosterone (a steroid hormone involved in salt-water balance in the body) and androstenedione (a male sex hormone), eventually making testosterone and estrogen.
Women with high cortisol demands due to chronic stress may shunt the progesterone made in their adrenal glands to producing other hormones that support the stress response.
Not only can stress alter ovulation and fertility through various other mechanisms, it can also rob the body of progesterone, directing any progesterone made towards cortisol production.
Testing Estrogen and Progesterone
Estrogen and progesterone can be tested reliably in saliva, blood and urine.
Month long salivary hormone testing of estrogen and progesterone can be an easy and effective way to track the eb and flow of these hormones throughout a women’s menstrual cycles.
In this test, women obtain a saliva sample every 3 to 5 days for the duration of the month to track how estrogen levels corresponds with progesterone and how both hormones rise and fall.
In my practice, however, I often start by running blood tests. I test hormones on day 21 (of a 28-day cycle) to coincide with progesterone’s peak. This can help us calculate the progesterone to estrogen ratio and establish whether the cause of estrogen dominance symptoms is high estrogen or low progesterone.
Blood tests offer the option of looking at estrone, which is a more problematic form of estrogen, as well as estradiol (the most common, metabolically active estrogen in the body). In blood we can also look at LH and FSH, two hormones produced in the brain and ovaries that orchestrate ovulation.
FSH tends to be high in women in menopause or perimenopause, while LH tends to be elevated in women with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS).
Dried urinary metabolite testing, or DUTCH, is an effective way to understand how hormones are broken down and processed by the body. Looking at the entire hormone breakdown pathway provides a more in-depth look at the complexity of hormones in a woman’s cycle, and can guide treatment in specific, useful ways.
The “Male” Hormones: Testosterone
Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) is one of the most common causes of infertility (and the most common endocrine disorder) in women of reproductive age. It affects about 10% of menstruating women.
PCOS is a collection of various symptoms and complex hormonal causes. However, it is characterized by missed periods, anovulation, male-pattern facial hair growth, especially on the upper lip, chin, breasts and abdomen, and the presence of cysts on the ovaries.
Other common symptoms of PCOS are weight gain, estrogen dominance, male-pattern hair loss (on the crown of the head), insulin resistance, infertility, and acne, especially hormonal cystic acne on the jawline.
PCOS is characterized by elevated levels of testosterone, a male sex hormone, or “androgen”, on blood work.
Acne, weight gain, infertility, and hair loss are the main symptoms that bring women with PCOS into my office.
PCOS is a complex process that involves an overproduction of testosterone in the ovaries coupled with insulin resistance. Therefore, balancing blood sugar through diet and lifestyle can have a major impact on symptoms.
The conventional treatment for missed or absent periods is oral contraceptives, which of course doesn’t treat the underlying cause of anovulation. That’s why women with PCOS often seek naturopathic and functional medical solutions to treat the root cause.
Testing for PCOS
When I meet a new patient with PCOS, I often test her blood for estradiol and progesterone levels at Day 21 of her cycle. A very low progesterone level may indicate that she has not ovulated that cycle.
We also test LH and FSH. A high LH:FSH ratio can be indicative of PCOS even if cysts are not present on an ovarian ultrasound.
Other important tests that are often ordered are free testosterone and DHEA-S, another male hormone made in the adrenal glands.
Glucose control and insulin resistance can be assessed by looking at fasting blood glucose, fasting insulin and HbA1c (a marker that looks at long-term glucose control).
Prolactin, another hormone released by the pituitary gland, can sometimes be elevated in anovulatory women with PCOS.
A 4-point salivary cortisol test may be useful in women with PCOS who are also experiencing symptoms of cortisol dysregulation, which can contribute to insulin resistance and affect ovulation and hormone regulation, particularly progesterone production.
Prolactin
Prolactin is a hormone released by the pituitary gland to promote milk production after child birth.
However, some women will have elevated levels of prolactin in blood, despite not currently pregnant or breastfeeding.
Called hyperprolactinemia, elevated prolactin may be a cause of anovulation, mimicking some symptoms of PCOS and menopause, including hot flashes, absent or irregular periods, infertility and even milk discharge from the breasts.
Hyperprolactinemia may be caused by low calorie diets, liver issues, hypothyroidism, and issues with the pituitary gland itself.
Prolactin can be tested in blood. If levels are elevated, an MRI must be conducted to rule out a physical issue with the pituitary gland, such as a tumour.
Oxytocin
Oxytocin is a hormone produced in the brain and secreted by the pituitary. It aids in childbirth. Also termed the “love hormone,” it’s associated with feelings of intimacy and connection.
While high and low levels of blood oxytocin can be possible in men and women who are not pregnant or breastfeeding, the clinical applications of it are not fully known.
Thyroid Hormones
The thyroid, a butterfly-shaped gland on our neck, is the master thermostat of the body, controlling heat and metabolism. It pumps out thyroid hormones T4 and T3, which tell cells to burn fuel, creating energy and heat.
Because our thyroid hormones interact with the cells in every body system, symptoms of hypothyroidism, or low thyroid function, can be incredibly diverse.
Common symptoms of hypothyroidism are weight gain or inability to lose weight, fatigue and sluggishness, brain fog, hair loss, low body temperature, constipation, dry skin and hair, puffiness, infertility, and altered menstrual cycles, such as missed periods or heavy periods.
Aside from autoimmunity, other causes of low thyroid function can be HPA axis dysregulation and chronic stress, a very low calorie or very low carbohydrate diet, sudden weight loss, a deficiency in nutrients needed for thyroid function such as iron, zinc, iodine and selenium, and a body burden of environmental toxins such as heavy metals.
Testing Thyroid
To assess thyroid function, conventional doctors will test a hormone called Thyroid Stimulating Hormone, or TSH. TSH is not a thyroid hormone, but a hormone made in the brain that urges the thyroid to pump out the thyroid hormones T3 and T4. It gives doctors an indirect measure of thyroid regulation.
When TSH levels are high, this suggests that thyroid function is sluggish; the brain needs to send a louder signal to get an unresponsive thyroid to work.
However, TSH is only a periphery marker of total thyroid function, not giving us the whole picture. Also, TSH ranges on conventional lab tests may fail to pick up some cases of subclinical hypothyroidism or impending cases of autoimmune thyroid conditions, otherwise termed Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, which is the most common cause of hypothyroidism.
To properly assess thyroid function in someone with symptoms of thyroid dysfunction, a slightly elevated TSH, or a family history of Hashimoto’s, I will order a thyroid panel: a blood test measuring TSH as well free thyroid hormone (T3 and T4) levels.
It’s also important to assess for autoimmune thyroid conditions by testing for anti-thyroglobulin and anti-thyroperoxidase antibodies. Both of these antibodies, when elevated, suggest the presence of an autoimmune thyroid condition.
Insulin
Some of the most common hormonal dysfunctions I see in my practice are insulin resistance and reactive hypoglycemia: blood sugar imbalance.
These issues often lie at the heart of other hormonal imbalance patterns, such as irregular menstrual cycles or HPA axis dysregulation.
When we eat, glucose enters our bloodstream, providing fuel for our cells. Insulin helps our cells access this hormone, spiking with each meal.
The higher the meal is on the glycemic index (i.e. the more sugar or refined carbohydrate it contains), the higher our post-meal blood sugar and insulin spikes will be.
Without insulin, we would slowly lose energy and die, unable to get precious glucose into our cells. Individuals with type I diabetes cannot make insulin. They must inject it daily to keep their cells fuelled and blood sugar stable.
For the rest of us who do make insulin, large blood sugar spikes after a meal can be problematic.
Insulin is a storage hormone. It helps energy get into cells, and it helps build muscle and brain cells, but it also blocks the breakdown of fat cells, blocking weight loss.
Insulin also drives down blood sugar levels. When blood sugar rises too quickly after a meal, a large insulin response can drop blood sugar levels too drastically, causing reactive hypoglycemia, or feeling “hangry” (hungry, angry, irritable, tired, light-headed, weak and dizzy) in between meals.
Individuals who experience hypoglycemia feel irritable, shaky, dizzy and anxious between meals. They often suffer from anxiety and panic attacks, and feel hungrier at night.
They may wake up in the middle of the night, as their bodies are unable to go 8 hours (the length of a decent night’s sleep) without food. This causes them to wake up, restless and perhaps anxious, in the early hours of the morning.
These individuals, paradoxically, rarely feel hungry at breakfast time.
I often see anxious patients wake from a restless sleep and toss back only a coffee in the morning, skipping breakfast due to slight morning nausea.
At 10 am, feeling ravenous and shaky, they might scarf down a high-glycemic bagel or croissant. Later on, they’ll enjoy a light lunch—maybe a sandwich—often feeling foggy and lightheaded after eating it.
At 2 to 4 pm, they may feel like an afternoon nap, instead indulging in a coffee and sweet treat to buy them some energy for the remaining hours of the work day.
Finally, after enjoying a larger dinner once they get home, they find themselves snacking all night long. Their bodies are finally urging them to ingest the nutrients they were lacking throughout the day.
They then fall into bed, feeling full, restless and wired, and the cycle begins again.
When our blood sugar falls, we not only feel hangry, weak, and crave processed carbs, our HPA axis also gets stimulated.
Cortisol, a glucocorticoid, can help our body control blood sugar, bringing it into the normal range after insulin sends it tanking too low.
This drop in blood sugar, therefore, needlessly triggers a stress response from the adrenal glands, which can further worsen anxiety, HPA axis dysregulation, and glucocorticoid resistance.
When blood sugar and insulin are spiked repeatedly for days, months, and years on end, cells stop responding attentively to insulin’s signal. Like our response to a pesky telemarketer, cells eventually stop picking up the phone when insulin calls.
However, cells still need insulin. More and more insulin must be released to trigger the same response from insulin resistant cells. This makes cells even more resistant, as they require even more insulin release the next time blood sugar rises to get glucose into the cell for fuel. And so the cycle becomes vicious.
Elevated insulin levels cause inflammation, fat gain, fatigue, depression, reactive hypoglycemia, and HPA axis dysregulation. The more resistant our cells become to insulin, the more cortisol must be called on to maintain blood sugar levels.
PCOS is also characterized by higher insulin levels. This prevents ovulation, causing infertility and female hormone imbalance.
When insulin resistance persists, type II diabetes, where the body is no longer able to keep blood sugar in a safe range, develops.
Type II diabetes is characterized by chronically high blood sugar—which poses a danger to small blood vessels, and is a potent inflammatory condition, increasing the risk of heart disease—and elevated insulin.
It affects almost 10% of the adult population and is the 7th leading underlying cause of death in North America, costing 350 billion dollars a year to manage in the United States alone.
Insulin-related weight gain can affect female hormones, as fat cells make estrogen in the body, leading to estrogen dominance.
Insulin also interacts with a hormone called leptin, which is created by fat cells in response to calorie intake. When body fat levels get too high, cells can become leptin resistant. The body no longer senses dietary calorie intake, leading to increased hunger. This exacerbates the problem of weight gain and insulin resistance.
Testing for Insulin Resistance
When I meet a patient who is presenting with stubborn weight gain, estrogen dominance and stress, I assess their blood for insulin resistance by looking at blood levels of fasting insulin and fasting glucose.
With these two values a calculation that measures insulin resistance, called the HOMA-IR, can be performed. This can give us a baseline measure of how well the body is compensating to control blood glucose.
I also run HbA1c, which looks at glucose levels over 3 months. I will often run a blood cholesterol panel, and inflammatory markers, such as CRP.
Insulin resistance often puts all of our hormones on a rollercoaster, which becomes very difficult to get off of unless we prioritize the diet and lifestyle interventions that address blood sugar control.
Assessing Hormones
When presented with a patient suffering from a complicated symptom pattern, I begin by taking a thorough health history in which we investigate:
Energy levels,
Sleep quantity and quality,
Mood and mental health history,
Period health history,
Family history,
Dietary intake and exercise,
Health risk factors like smoking, alcohol use, and past health history.
Depending on how clear the patient’s symptom picture presents, we may opt to make some changes before testing, to gauge their body’s response to an increase in nutrient intake.
Then, if necessary, I will order a comprehensive blood work.
Blood testing might include a thyroid hormone panel, and an in-depth look at female hormones, fasting insulin and fasting blood glucose, and other markers that help us assess health, such as cholesterol and inflammatory markers, or nutrient levels.
Patients requiring a more comprehensive view of their cycles may opt for month-long salivary testing. Others may opt for a dried urine test that looks at hormonal breakdown in the body.
A Sample Case
Jenny (name changed for privacy) came to me feeling fatigued and anxious.
She had suffered from anxiety periodically as a teen, but now at age 46 she was experiencing bimonthly panic attacks that seemed to occur cyclically; the panic would come around ovulation and premenstrually.
It was hard to tell, however, because Jenny also claimed that her periods were “all over the place”. One month they were heavy and painful, causing her to take time off work, crouched on the bathroom floor in agony. Other months she barely noticed them, experiencing some light spotting, if anything at all.
Very troubling to her was her major mood volatility, which she described like a “switch” that would suddenly flip on or off, causing her to breakdown at work or pick fights with her family.
Then, almost as suddenly, the cloud would lift and she would be her cheerful, friendly, loving self again.
It was maddening, both to her and those living with her during these darks times, she said.
She also noticed disrupted sleep and weight gain around the abdomen, which seemed to ignore her intense workouts and strict dietary regime.
Jenny was highly accomplished at her high-pressure job and commented that she thrived on being busy and achievement oriented.
I tested Jenny’s blood estradiol, estrone, progesterone, LH, and FSH levels one week before her next expected period, had her fill out a weekly diet diary, and gave her some recommendations about sleep and supplement intake.
Jenny’s blood revealed elevated FSH, indicative of impending menopause (FSH encourages the ovaries to ovulate, as TSH encourages the thyroid gland to make thyroid hormone). She also had low estradiol, and low progesterone, but elevated levels of estrone, the more problematic of the estrogens.
According to her labs and history, Jenny was experiencing estrogen dominance and perimenopause. Many of her symptoms were stemming from elevated estrone, low progesterone and a disrupted HPA axis.
Together, we worked on her diet to provide her body with the nutrients needed to make hormones and to support her brain, mood and adrenal glands.
We used herbs and dietary nutrients to promote liver estrogen clearance and to support Jenny’s adrenal glands.
We addressed the stress in her life, encouraged relaxation, and made sure her body was supported in its ability to make and respond to cortisol.
After a few months, Jenny reported a reduction in hot flashes, better sleep and feeling calmer. She had a reduction in her waist line and better energy and mood.
Our hormones, when imbalanced, can cause vicious cycles in the body that trap us in a state of worsening imbalance.
Through correctly assessing these common hormonal patterns through a health history and appropriate testing, and then making diet, lifestyle and supplement suggestions addressed at stopping these cycles, naturopathic doctors can address underlying hormonal issues that might be causing these complex and troublesome patterns of hormone disruption.
This is one of my favourite exercises from Mindfulness Based Cognitive Therapy, or MBCT, and just one exercise in an 8-week course directed at those who suffer from depression and anxiety.
This exercise helps us practice staying with difficult thoughts, emotions, and body sensations, teaching us to turn towards difficulty, rather than turning away.
It is better to do this exercise when difficulty is already present.
Try to use a 10 lb weight, not a 100 lb weight. However, in many situations, we don’t get to choose. If the practice is particularly intense, you can perhaps focus on the breath, or open your eyes and let go of the practice.
Note: this video is to support a mindfulness practice and to use in conjunction with help from a licensed mental health professional.
I review my adventurous year of living on the Low Carb High Fat Ketogenic Diet.
I’ve always had a sweet tooth.
I remember binging on Halloween candy as a kid, stuffing one tiny chocolate bar after another into my mouth, as fast as my little fingers could unwrap them, trapped in some kind of sugar-filled trance.
“Never get between Talia and her food!” My family would joke when my blood sugar would crash between meals and I’d rage towards the fridge for a snack to keep me sane.
I remember digging into the little bags of cheese popcorn reserved for school lunches, finishing off one after another and then hiding the wrappers in their big Costco box so that it would look like it was still full, the way rebellious teens top up empty vodka bottles with water.
I can gain weight with the drop of a hat (but also put on muscle fairly easily), and it takes concentrated effort and dedication to take it off.
After a period of temporary stress and bagel-related weight gain, I decided to embark on a bit of experimentation. Work was getting busy and I wanted to supply my brain with constant energy without having to take snack breaks every few hours. Also enticed by anecdotes of shattered weight loss plateaus, I decided to “go Keto”.
I like experimenting with diet. Like many health-conscious people, finding the right nutrition regime for me has been a process. In my teens I started controlling portions and switching out white breads for whole grain rye and Jolly Ranchers for carrot sticks. In my early 20’s, I was vegetarian. I tried being vegan for a while before deciding it was a disaster for my health when I began to experience nutrient deficiencies, weight gain, and hormonal issues.
Later on, I followed my naturopathic school classmates to a modified Paleo diet (keeping in some gluten-free grains and legumes), then moved to a more traditional Paleo diet (taking out the grains and legumes), before going back to the modified version (which is probably the best eating style for me—more on that later).
For the most part, my diet is comprised of whole foods, with lots of vegetables, but in the Fall of 2016, when this all began, I was in a pretty Standard North American place when it came to food intake. At the time I was suffering from IBS, some issues related to subclinical PCOS, and fatigue. I was also starting to see some signs of impaired glucose control.I wasn’t feeling good and I was in need of a kind of reset of sorts.
I was interested in seeing how relying on ketone bodies for fuel would help my body, mental performance, and improve my blood glucose control and symptoms. I have a family history of type II diabetes and I wanted to do what I could to prevent insulin resistance and metabolic syndrome. Drastic times call for drastic measures, I thought.
Ergo, The Ketogenic Diet.
About the Diet:
The Classic Ketogenic Diet was first developed in the 1920’s to treat children with medication-resistant epilepsy.
When our brains are starved of glucose, their preferred fuel source (our brains use up 60% of the body’s glucose), the liver creates ketone bodies from stored or dietary fat that the brain can use as a substitute source of energy.
One of these ketone bodies, beta-hydroxybutyrate, is thought to be a particularly therapeutic molecule for the brain, conveying anti-convulsive benefits, thereby helping to reduce the incidence of seizures in children who don’t respond to medication.
However, the original Ketogenic diet is more extreme than the general health and weight loss-aimed diet we see described in recipe books these days. The Classic Ketogenic diet consists of about 90% of calories coming from fat. In order to achieve that, followers need to severely restrict their protein intake, and virtually eliminate all dietary sources of carbohydrate, which drastically limits their nutrition choices.
Since, the benefits of beta-hydroxybutyrate are being studied for other neurological disorders, such as Parkinson’s disease, dementia, migraine headaches and narcolepsy. It’s being looked at as a potential treatment for mental health conditions, like autism and depression, and metabolic disorders such as type II diabetes, and even to increase the efficacy of chemotherapy and radiation treatments in cancer. Other studies are looking at its role in improving cognitive function in mice and humans.
Some research shows that beta-hydroxybutyrate can expand lifespan by interacting with genes that slow aging. It is also shown to confer anti-inflammatory and antioxidant benefits.
In the 1970’s, Dr. Atkins responded to the high-carbohydrate, low-fat dogma of the nutrition world at the time, by bringing a modified Ketogenic diet into vogue. Restricting all forms of carbohydrates and encouraging a consumption of the still-vilified high-fat foods like bacon, eggs and cheese, Atkins affirmed that people could lose weight by eating fat, as long as they restricted carbohydrates at the same time.
The modern version of the Ketogenic Diet is slightly more health-conscious, promoting a higher intake of vegetables. The current diet restricts carbohydrates to under 20 to 50 grams per day, and encourages a high fat intake and a moderate protein intake, in order to encourage the body to turn to fat as its primary source of fuel. The current version of “Keto” is less strict than it’s initial epilepsy-treating incarnation, with anywhere from 60-85% of its calories coming from fat.
My Version of Keto:
I started the whole journey by tracking my food intake (using My Fitness Pal). My aim was to consume 20 grams of net carbs, or less, per day to push my body into using fat-turned-to-ketone bodies as a its primary fuel source.
Net carbs are calculated by subtracting dietary fibre from total grams of carbohydrates. For example, 1 cup of raw broccoli contains 6 grams of carbs. 2.5 of those are fibre. Therefore, the net carbs in broccoli are 3.5, which would count towards my net carb goal of 20 grams per day.
This isn’t easy. Take a look at any package of food you regularly consume. 1 cup of cooked oatmeal contains 23 grams of net carbs: 3 grams over my entire daily allotment. Therefore all high-carb foods like grains, legumes, starchy nuts, all fruits, and some starchier vegetables, were off limits.
Many people opt to test their blood, breath or urine for ketone bodies to determine whether or not their bodies are in ketosis. I dabbled in this, using the urinalysis strips in my clinic to test for urinary ketones. However, even though I was sticking to the diet, the strips would mostly turn up negative for ketones.
There are a few reasons why ketone strips may not be a reliable marker for ketosis. Firstly, the don’t test for beta-hydroxybutyrate, which is the main ketone body utilized by the brain, but acetoacetate, another ketone body produced in the liver.
Secondly, urinalysis strips only test for urine ketone spillover. They don’t necessarily reflect blood levels, and they won’t pick up the ketones that are being utilized as fuel by the body. If cells are absorbing all the ketones the liver produces, urine testing may not be positive.
The most accurate, albeit more expensive, method for testing ketone bodies is through a skin-prick test that analyzes blood levels of beta-hydroxybutyrate.
While I knew that the urine strips weren’t highly accurate, not having my state of ketosis validated was discouraging. I was often left in doubt over whether things were “working”. I wondered if there was some other mechanism going on. Was my body finding carbohydrates from someplace else? Did I have Small Intestinal Bacteria Overgrowth that was digesting my fibre and allowing me to absorb it somehow? Were my blood ketones being used up somewhere else (by the yeast in my gut, for instance)?
I did have signs of being in ketosis that I could watch for, however. When I avoid carbs, or fast for a few days, I start to develop a metallic taste on the tip of my tongue. It’s not a common sign of ketosis, a more common sign is a “nail polish” or “paint thinner” taste in the back of the throat, but still a symptom that some people report.
Keto Flu:
During the first few days of switching to Low Carb High Fat, I had to white knuckle through a phase realistically termed the “Keto or Low Carb Flu”. This horrible phenomenon is thought to be a result of the body switching from burning glucose as its primary fuel source to adapting to ketone body production. There is often a painful adjustment period for brains that have to learn how to rely on ketones for their main fuel source after a lifetime of glucose abundance.
It was nasty. I felt intense hunger and sugar cravings, nausea, dizziness, and weakness—it truly was a “flu”.
I knew that I had spent most, if not all, of my life as a sugar burner. Before Keto, I would crave food even just two hours after a full meal. I would often feel “hangry”: dizzy and shaky in between meals, and irritable if made to wait for food for too long. I had been existing between carb-dense meals, experiencing insanity-inducing reactive hypoglycemia between my regular sugar fixes.
The more I read about others’ experiences, the more I was assured that the keto flu symptoms were actually a sign of my body healing. I was becoming adapted to other fuel sources, which was a good thing, I thought.
So, I muscled through and followed the online advice: I consumed more fat to provide more fuel to my brain, including medium chain triglyceride (MCT) oil, which is quickly absorbed by the lymphatic system and turned into ketones by the liver, and I consumed electrolytes, which are more rapidly excreted from the bodies of low carb dieters.
For some people, Keto flu can last for days, for others it lasts weeks. For me, the Keto flu thankfully only lasted two days, after which my body began to adjust and my cravings for sugar went down. I began to feel more energy, which felt encouraging.
Daily Meal Plan:
For breakfast, I would typically eat a high-fat smoothie containing coconut milk yogurt, gelatin, and avocado, and topped with pumpkin seeds and cacao. Sometimes I’d make fat bombs or homemade unsweetened chocolate.
I’d have my second meal of the day in the mid-afternoon, around 2 to 3 pm, for which I’d consume a few cups of cruciferous vegetables, like broccoli or cabbage, with a fatty cut of meat like ground beef, chicken thighs, or salmon, all topped with liberal amounts of fat from coconut, olives, avocados, or grass-fed ghee. I made a lot of batch-cooked grain-free curries and stews.
If I had a third meal or snack in the day, it would be another serving of fat: a handful of macadamia nuts or a hunk of creamed coconut.
Eating this way made me feel like Obama and his grey suits—I didn’t have to plan my meals too carefully. All I had to do was eat fat. My food was so calorie dense and my blood sugar so stable that I didn’t need to eat often. This meant that I didn’t need to worry about bringing food with me everywhere I went; one meal could satiate me for half the day. Hunger was never an emergency situation, as it had been in the past. Hunger would come on very slowly, and it would never be “hanger”; my already low blood sugar had nowhere to dip to. If I needed more food, I could always wait until I got home to eat.
More Benefits:
Within a few days, my PCOS- related cystic acne cleared. I also felt slimmer as some water retention deflated. This felt good. Our body stores carbohydrate in the form of glycogen in the liver and muscles. Glycogen stores retain water.
When glycogen stores are used up, a rapid 5 or more pound drop in weight can occur. This is the “water weight” that people talk about losing when they first begin some kind of nutrition plan.
It’s also common to notice a drop in water weight from a decrease in inflammation, when embarking on a new eating plan. I know that I am sensitive to certain carbs and dairy and, because those things were out of my diet overall (although Keto can certainly include high-fat dairy products for those who can tolerate them), the water retention caused by chronic inflammation seemed to clear.
Although it seems to attract people primarily for its hip-slimming potential, the Ketogenic diet probably does not cause weight loss in and of itself. Instead, the diet encourages a passive reduction in calories by stabilizing blood sugar and insulin levels, while promoting the intake of highly satiating foods containing protein and fat. Ketone bodies also have appetite-suppressing effects. Therefore, it’s probably a calorie deficit that causes the weight loss, rather than any specific biochemistry in the diet itself.
I didn’t lose much more weight than the water weight. However, my mood was brighter. I would wake up in the morning looking forward to the day, which often doesn’t happen in the winter. I felt more sustained energy throughout the day, and really enjoyed the decreased appetite, which led to more productivity.
I felt fine consuming two meals a day, able to get through hours of back-to-back patient visits without needing a snack or a break. It was actually incredible to need so few meals; it was like becoming another person, one no longer ruled by sugar cravings. I was like a camel, switching to stored fuel when the fat from my last meal had run out, and the transition was seamless. There was no wall to hit, and no hypoglcyemic crash to be seen.
I also noticed less bloating and digestive issues, probably from the lack of fermentation in my gut and the reduction in foods that tend to aggravate IBS, like certain vegetables, fruit, and legumes.
However, all was not roses on the Keto diet. While the first few months were dreamy, the longer I stayed on it the more I started to notice changes in my body that indicated the honeymoon period I was enjoying wasn’t going to last.
The Microbiome:
The research is in: human beings probably need 10 servings of fruits and vegetables a day (roughly 5 cups), or 800 g, a day to get the most heart disease, stroke and cancer-preventing benefits that diet can afford us. The International Journal of Epidemiology concluded that, if the correlations found in their February 2017 study were causal, almost 8 million lives might have been saved in 2013 if everyone in the world had simply consumed their fruits and veggies.
It’s one thing all diets, even the faddy ones, agree on—from the Paleo Peeps, to Plant-Based Hippies, to Raw Macrobiotic Sun Worshippers, to Whole Foods Michael Pollen Omnivores, to the dejected nagged-at husband pushing brusselsprouts around on his plate—fruit and vegetables are good for you. You should eat them. If you’re a typical North American, you should probably eat more than you’re eating. The health value of everything else we eat seems to be up for debate: red meat, saturated fat, soy, bread, coffee. The benefits of eating enough fruits and vegetables, however? There’s no contest.
It’s hard to pick one way in which fruits and vegetables are so health protective. It could be because of their high concentrations of micronutrients, reducing the risk of common nutrient deficiencies, like magnesium and vitamin C. It could be because, if you’re filling your body with a kilogram of fruits and vegetables a day, you probably aren’t scarfing down an entire medium-sized pizza and supersized orange pop as well—there just isn’t room. It could also be the antioxidants they contain that protect cells against free radical damage, protecting DNA. Or perhaps its the fermentable fibres present in fruits and vegetables that feed our invaluable microbiome.
The problem with keeping net carbs under 20 grams a day was that I needed to restrict my fruit and vegetable intake. I was eating no fruit at all, and staying away from the starchier veggies, like carrots and beets. I still stuck to my beloved leafy greens and crucifates, but even eating 2 to 3 cups of those guys a day would push me to the upper limits of my carbohydrate intake, which meant I couldn’t eat them as liberally as I had been.
Getting enough vegetables and (any) fruits on the keto diet is hard, if not impossible. This can impact our ability to get the micronutrients we need, but also enough fermentable fibres from vegetables like garlic, onions, yams, Jerusalem artichokes, and legumes, which provide food for our microbiome.
Feeding our gut bugs is important. They benefit us in numerous ways, from digesting out food, to calming inflammation, to fuelling gut cells by producing a short-chain fatty acid called butyrate. They help our immune systems function optimally. They produce neurotransmitters for our brains to work. They balance our stress responses and our circadian rhythms.
Jeff Leach, at the Human Microbiome Project speculates that the lack of dietary fibre in most low-carb diets may impact the health of the microbiome in negative ways by depriving the gut bacteria of their preferred food sources, as well as altering the acidity of the colon and intestines. He cites this article, in which obese subjects on a high-protein and low-carb diet had lower levels of butyrate in their bodies and intestines, likely due to decreased diversity in their guts.
There are, however, some studies that suggest that a Ketogenic diet can improve the microbiome in children with epilepsy, and autism, and some speculation by the researchers that that may be how the diets treat these conditions. However, since these studies are not done in “healthy” children, with an already healthy microbiota, it’s hard to extrapolate the findings to the healthy adult population.
Then there’s the fact that most studies that look at high fat diets and their impact on the microbiome are mostly done in rats. Of course, rats aren’t humans, despite there being relative genetic similarities. In these animal studies, researchers refer to “a high fat diet” when in fact they mean a high fat, high sugar diet. The sources of fat in these “high fat” mouse diets are often corn, margarine, or soy oil, which we know are highly inflammatory and offer few if any health benefits.
In other words, many studies on “high fat” diets are not looking at a relatively balanced Ketogenic diet that consists of vegetables, proteins, and healthy sources of fats from avocados, coconut, fish, olives, nuts and seeds and grass-fed meats.
Context is important as well. Is it the high fat diet that causes a reduction in gut diversity or the absence of fibre? This one mouse study showed that simply providing the mice with fibre in addition to their high fat diets decreased their risk of obesity.
I felt that my gut initially improved in the first few months on Keto: the diet was low in foods that aggravate me: namely refined carbs, sugar, gluten and dairy, as well as some of the fermentable fibres that can aggravate IBS. However, it never fully healed. After a few months, I started to notice the symptoms of bloating and digestive irregularities coming back.
Candida, a yeast that resides in the gut and can overgrow in the intestines in some people, especially the immunocompromised, causing symptoms of fatigue, IBS, and weight gain, among a variety of other symptoms, can survive on ketone bodies. Yeasts have mitochondria of their own. Some species of gut bacteria can consume protein, bile salts and even fats.
Contrary to what many claim, a Ketogenic diet doesn’t necessarily “starve out” the bad gut bugs. Combined with the lack of fibre to feed the beneficial gut bacteria and promote more bacterial diversity, a prolonged Ketogenic diet may be a recipe for gut dysbiosis.
Hormones:
Throughout my year spent in ketosis, I definitely noticed an improvement in my insulin signalling and glucose control, especially in the first few months. Looking at my blood work in March, after about a year of the Ketogenic diet (and then having been off it for a few months), my fasting insulin was very low and fasting blood glucose levels were in the low-optimal range. HOMA-IR, a calculation that is used as a marker of insulin resistance, was also low, indicating good insulin sensitivity.
I personally believe that this means that my risk for getting metabolic syndrome or type II diabetes is low, as long as I maintain this level of insulin sensitivity by watching the glycemic load of my diet and my stress levels.
The metabolic flexibility awarded to me from my year in ketosis also proved to be invaluable. Now, I no longer fear fasting and I can survive on other fuel sources besides sugar. My brain knows how to tap into stored and dietary fat more efficiently, and use those for energy. Even when not following any sort of low-carb diet, I noticed that I could survive between meals while travelling in Southeast Asia for two months, whereas normally I would have had to exist on unhealthy, sugary snacks.
However, after a few months on the diet, I began to notice a decline in my menstrual health. My cycles began to get longer, and soon I started missing periods. I noticed more hair falling out in the shower and more cystic acne developing on my chin. When I ran my blood estrogen and progesterone levels, I was surprised to see that their levels were very low.
We know that insulin, while often vilified as a “fat storage” hormone is actually responsible for storing everything, including nutrients. It also correlates with estrogen levels and the conversion of T4, one of our thyroid hormones, to its active friend, T3, which runs our metabolism. Insulin builds muscle, bone and brain cells. Very low insulin levels, in my case, were contributing to amenorrhea and a disruption in my sex hormones.
This wasn’t good.
While not quite the same as Intermittent Fasting (IF), Keto is often grouped into the same category because of its similar impact on blood glucose and insulin. The difference is that Intermittent Fasting induces ketosis through periodic food restriction, as opposed to carb restriction. Keto and IF often go hand in hand, however. The reduced hunger and high-nutrient density of the foods eaten on a Ketogenic diet often lend well to practicing intermittent fasting. It did in my case—I was only eating two main meals a day.
I always found it interesting, however, that most proponents of intermittent fasting are men. The male body appears to thrive in the fasted state, getting a boost of growth hormone and norepinephrine, both of which provide men with energy, motivation, and an improved sense of well-being.
This hormonal change may be a remnant of our ancestral hunter-gatherer days where it would be an advantage to feel motivated and energized to go out and hunt during periods of food scarcity.
I don’t think female bodies experience exactly the same effect. Some preliminary animal research tends to suggest that as well.
A few rat studies indicate that fasting may impair female insulin sensitivity, and induce amenorrhea, or missed periods. Female bodies rely on a consistent influx of calories and carbohydrates to stimulate insulin, which plays a role in stimulating thyroid hormones and estrogen, to continue to ovulate. Another study showed that fasting tended to “masculinize” female rats, lowering their female hormones, and increasing their levels of androgens, the male sex hormones, like testosterone.
Of course, these studies were done on fasted rats, which cannot be fully translated to the effects of Intermittent Fasting and Ketogenic diets on women. However, some of these findings did validate my experience, which certainly wasn’t being validated in the podcasts and blog posts I was exposed to, largely written and followed by men.
I did experience positive hormonal effects: the increased insulin sensitivity and lowered blood glucose. However, I was not happy about my irregular cycles and estrogen deficiency.
Therefore, I decided to increase my carbohydrate intake, returning to a more moderate Paleo diet that consists of some fruit, starchier vegetables and legumes. After a few months, my periods returned to normal, my skin cleared up, my hair stopped falling out, and my thyroid hormones, estrogen and progesterone levels all returned to their optimal ranges.
I have still have low fasting insulin levels, suggesting that the Ketogenic diet did help to reset my insulin sensitivity and that this effect may be lasting.
Metabolic Health:
After a year of doing the Ketogenic diet, and then a few months of returning to a moderate-carb paleo diet, I tested my cholesterol levels and inflammatory markers. My HDL cholesterol (the “good” cholesterol, to put it very simply) was high, my triglycerides (a risk factor for heart disease) were very low, and my LDL cholesterol (the “bad” cholesterol that statin drugs target) was also low. My inflammatory markers: C-Reactive Protein (CRP) and erythrocyte sedimentation rate (ESR), were also low.
While it is typically the monounsaturated fats, like olive oils and avocados, that are associated with increased levels of the heart-protective HDL cholesterol, even saturated fats from coconut oil can raise HDL. LDL is often lowered by these healthy monounsaturated fats, however saturated fats, even healthy ones, can raise LDL in certain individuals.
All else being equal, higher levels of LDL may not be as big of a problem as we think. Especially in the context of low risk factors, like low inflammation, absence of smoking and a healthy body weight. What’s more, the triglycerides and cholesterol/HDL ratio may be more important factors for determining heart disease risk. Further, assessing LDL particle size may also provide those concerned about their LDL levels with more information concerning their cardiovascular health. That being said, it is important to be aware that some of the fats present in a Ketogenic diet have the potential to raise blood levels of LDL in certain susceptible individuals, and that not everyone’s blood lipid results will look like mine.
Triglyceride levels are associated with liver function, and generally reflect dietary sugar, fructose and refined carbohydrate intake, rather than fat intake. Reducing refined dietary carbohydrates like white grains, flours and sugars is a good strategy for reducing triglyceride levels and reducing heart disease risk.
Some individuals can experience elevated levels of inflammation on a Ketogenic diet, depending on the quality of foods consumed. A Ketogenic diet low in fibre that fails to feed the microbiome; high in foods that a person may have an individualized sensitivity to (such as dairy, eggs, nuts or soy); or high in inflammatory fats like trans fats, and industrial oils like canola and corn oil, may all contribute to increased inflammation.
That being said, certain ketone bodies like beta-hydroxybutyrate may have anti-inflammatory properties. Many of the fats consumed in a mindful, whole foods Ketogenic diet, such as olives, avocados, seeds, salmon, and coconut, are also anti-inflammatory.
I found my blood markers a good indicator of the power of a high-fat, low-carb diet to, at least in my case, improve HDL cholesterol and lower triglycerides, fasting insulin and fasting glucose levels. Whether I needed an entire year in ketosis, or whether I even needed to actually enter ketosis to receive these benefits, isn’t clear. Perhaps I could have gotten the same results by moderately lowering my carb intake while increasing my dietary intake of healthy fats.
Modified Ketogenic Diets:
While I do think I benefitted from entering into ketosis, I would not necessarily recommend a Ketogenic diet to patients unless to achieve some sort of therapeutic goal, such as improved insulin resistance, or for adjunct cancer care, to reduce inflammation, or to improve severe depression, migraines, or narcolepsy.
However, there may be a benefit to cyclical Ketogenic diets for memory and cognition, and increased life span in mice. Cyclical Ketogenic diets involve entering ketosis on alternate weeks. On the other weeks, participants return to a normal, whole foods diet that contains higher amounts of carbohydrates. In this case, individuals gets the benefits of beta-hydroxybutyrate production and increased metabolic flexibility on their weeks on, while also being able to eat a high amount of fermentable carbs and fibres on their weeks off, essentially getting the best of both worlds.
Adding medium chain triglycerides to food may also confer health benefits, similar to being on a Ketogenic diet. One study showed that adding MCT oil to a high-carb breakfast (pasta), reduced appetite in men. This is likely because, after burning through the glucose in the pasta, the men’s brains were able to access the ketone bodies that were made readily available by burning the MCT oil. This kept their brains fuelled and their bodies satiated for longer.
The men eating pasta and MCT oil in the study had a ketone blood level of 0.3, which is similar to that obtained from a diet that derives 10% of its calories from carbohydrates, which is an essentially a very low-carb, if not Ketogenic, diet. This may indicate that simply adding MCT oil to a moderate to low-carbohydrate diet, may confer some of the benefits of having a slightly higher rate of circulating ketone bodies without having to follow a strict diet. Again, following this strategy, you can get the best of both worlds: consume a diet high in fibre, while also getting a steady flow of ketone bodies to the brain.
Other interesting areas of research are the use of supplemental, or exogenous, ketones for therapeutic use, however the area is new and not something I currently recommend in my practice (although this may change when more research begins to emerge and better supplements enter the market).
My Plan Moving Forward?
I’m happy that I gave the Ketogenic diet a try, but now I’m back to my more modified Paleo diet, aimed at promoting gut health, optimizing my micronutrient intake, regulating hormones, and supporting my energy levels. I now consume berries and apples, legumes, starchier vegetables and lean proteins more often and aim to get 10 servings of fruits and vegetables a day, with 8 to 9 of servings coming from vegetables, as opposed to fruit.
I currently start my day with a smoothie with berries, an avocado, spinach and protein powder. For lunch I have some sort of protein, fat, and tons of veggies. I eat more often than when I was in ketosis: about 3 meals a day with a vegetable and fat as a snack, or no snack at all in between, depending on my schedule.
My total daily carbohydrate intake falls around 100 grams a day with a net carb intake between 50 to 70 grams a day, depending on the fibre content of the vegetables, seeds, and legumes I’ve eaten that day. I try to get upwards of 30 grams of dietary fibre per day.
I avoid all sugar, including sweeter fruits like tropical fruits, and dried fruits, like dates. I especially stay away from refined sugars, even “natural” coconut sugars and agave. I avoid processed carbohydrates and flours. I mostly avoid grains, except when travelling or visiting someone’s house, getting my carbs from starchy vegetables and tubers, legumes and berries. I continue to avoid dairy (which I’m sensitive to), gluten, and processed industrial oils like canola, corn, and soy oil.
Right now, rather than focussing on macronutrient ratios, I’m directing my food intake towards obtaining the Recommended Daily Allowances of the micronutrients that run all of our cellular reactions, and the fibres that feed a healthy gut microbiota. I use an app called Cronometer to track this.
I definitely eat more fat than before, adding MCT oil to my morning smoothie, especially on days when I need to stay full and focused for longer. I also aim to do at least 12 hours of fasting a day, trying to get in 16-18 hour fasts where I can, ending dinner at 4pm, for example. I no longer do regular long bouts of Intermittent Fasting, particularly not when I’m feeling stressed and burnt out.
Would I Recommend the Ketogenic Diet to Patients?
One of the main tenants of Naturopathic Medicine is “Do no harm”. While it may seem like making diet and lifestyle recommendations are relatively benign therapies, I believe that they do have the potential to do physical and psychological harm, particularly if they are strict recommendations.
Following a strict diet may have health benefits, but it also may isolate us from friends and family, frustrate us and restrict our intake of certain nutrients, like fibre, vitamins and minerals. This is one of the reasons I do not ever advocate a Vegan diet, although if patients are following one already, I believe in guiding them to optimize their nutrient intake.
Furthermore, at least in my personal experience, the cure was stronger than the disease. I probably didn’t need to do the Ketogenic diet for so long; this was evidenced by the hormonal imbalances that I began to experience towards the end of my year on the diet.
However, particularly for patients who are suffering from metabolic syndrome, type II diabetes and insulin resistance or PCOS, there may be some powerful benefits to entering ketosis in order to dramatically reverse metabolic dysfunction. In this case, a modified regime combining Intermittent Fasting and cyclical Ketogenic diets could be beneficial.
Of course, it all depends on where patients are at in their nutrition journeys. Sometimes I meet patients who require, and respond well to, more heroic lifestyle interventions. Other times I meet patients relying on several sugary treats a day to get them through. In these cases, simply tweaking their diet in small ways, using baby steps may also have powerful disease-risk-reversing effects.
I will never get annoyed at a patient’s “lack of compliance” again.
Health care is scary, even when you know what you’re doing. When it’s your own health, putting yourself in the hands of a professional is not easy.
Yesterday I had an initial consult for myself with a nutrition specialist. She’s well-known in her field, super-academic, in her 70s, and has published books and papers.
She knows her stuff. She’s also really helped a friend of mine and the referral came from him. I had every reason to trust her and feel good about putting myself in her hands.
However, I was nervous getting ready to see her. I filled out a diet diary… what would she think? What would she say about my blood work? Would she be nice? Would she be understanding? Would we get along?
Survival instincts kick in.
We talked about a few things in the first visit (which cost an arm and a leg, but will be worth it if I’m left feeling great) and she prescribed some supplements for me to take.
I left, kind of satisfied. Ready to get on with our journey, with a list of things to pick up, dosages to tweak, things to consider and instructions to book again in 3 to 4 weeks.
Ok.
I woke up this morning, in the early hours tossing and turning, thinking to myself, “I don’t want to take vitamin E!” And “Did she truly understand my concerns?” And “what are all these supplements treating?” and “did she really hear me out?” And, “is all this going to actually help?”
The impulse to not trust, to run and hide, to override her assessment and recommendations with my own were overwhelming. (And, of course, as someone who does what she does for a living, the struggle to overcome this is real, we’re “experts” on the body, but it’s nice to let someone else give direction for a change, especially someone with 30+ more years’ experience).
Still, trusting is hard.
Being aware of the impulse to run and avoid, while also resisting the impulse, is hard.
I have people who neglect booking a follow-up even when they know that we still have lots of work to do.
I have people who don’t fill out diet diaries for fear of actually taking a hard look at their food intake.
I have people who email me that “nothing is working” when in fact they haven’t started taking their nutrients and supplements yet.
And, guess what, as frustrating as that may be (because ultimately, I want people to have success! I want people to heal), I’m doing the same thing.
Jeez, being in the patient chair is mighty humbling.
I highly recommend it to all my health practitioner colleagues out there.
And, yes, now I’m taking vitamin E. I’ve decided to just trust. (But I’m still taking my own multi-vitamin… hey, doctors make the worst patients… amiright?)
Since publising the original article about the Mirena IUD on this blog, thousands of women have come out of the woodwork writing to me asking for help.
When I originally wrote the article, I was spurned on by my observations of the women in my practice who had experienced a rise in estrogen dominance and low progesterone after the insertion of their IUDs (which were often inserted to treat hormone imbalances!).
At that point I never imagined that so many women would be affected by the IUD, or that even more were suffering from so many hormonal symptoms that drastically affected their lives and health.
It makes sense: our society does not set us up for proper hormonal function.
Our diets are carbohydrate-heavy, promoting insulin resistance and blood sugar dysregulation, which impacts our ovaries’ ability to make estrogen properly.
An excess amount of body fat produces more estrogen in the body and acts as a reservoir for the toxic estrogens in our environment.
We lack many of the micronutrients necessary to process our hormones properly, such as vitamin D, B vitamins, magnesium, zinc, omega 3 fatty acids, glutathione, and amino acids.
Many of us have impaired or suboptimal liver function, or sluggish digestion, which keeps hormones in our bodies around longer than they should be.
A dysbiotic gut has the tendency to turn estrogen in the gut back “on”, putting it back into circulation when it was otherwise on its way out of the body.
Stress alters our hormonal function, including our ability to make progesterone, DHEA-S, convert thyroid hormones, and process estrogen properly.
Xenoestrogens in our food and environment, from plastics, fragrances, pesticides, and processed soy products, contribute to overall body burden of the hormones in our body, throwing off our delicate balance, and contributing to symptoms.
The result of all this is that many women suffer from hormonal imbalances.
10% of women have some form of PCOS, or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, characterized by the body’s inability to properly make progesterone or estrogen, instead making loads of male hormones, like testosterone. PCOS alters fertility, promotes weight gain, and causes things like unwanted facial hair growth, acne, and missed periods. PCOS is often connected to stress and insulin resistance.
Many women in my practice suffer from PMS or PMDD, experiencing often debilitating symptoms sometimes even two weeks before their periods begin. They might get migraines, intense cravings for sugar, and massive mood changes, such as anxiety, intense irritability, or devastating depression. Panic attacks can occur at this time as well. Many of them comment that their mood and personalities flip once their hormones levels reach a certain point, causing them to act like different people. This can jeopardize their relationships with spouses and children, coworkers, friends and family.
Tender and painful breasts, or breast lumps, are also common in many of these women.
Acne, weight gain, stress, fatigue, disrupted sleep, depression and anxiety are all symptoms I see in women with hormonal imbalances.
Many women have horrific cycles, experiencing painful and heavy periods that often cause them to miss days of work every month. Many of these women struggle to keep their iron levels in the optimal range, suffering from hair loss, fatigue and weakness.
Many women are diagnosed with fibroids, or endometriosis, or are concerned about their risk of female cancers like breast, ovarian, uterine and cervical cancer.
All of these symptoms are often linked to relatively higher levels of estrogens compared to progesterone, sometimes termed Estrogen Dominance by functional medical practitioners who look at the underlying causes of bodily imbalances.
I feel terrible that I can’t help more of the women who write to me. My license prevents me from giving advice to those who live abroad, especially to non-patients over the internet. It’s a shame, however, because oftentimes the solutions are relatively simple, despite how complicated many of these symptoms might seem.
I’m hoping that this article can provide some direction to many of the women who suffer.
Firstly, I want to state that I am not against birth control or even the Mirena IUD (or other IUDs, for that matter). The vast majority of women with the IUD tolerate it. For many women with debilitating heavy periods and endometriosis it can be the only viable solution that makes life tolerable.
In my social practice at Evergreen, many of the women I see experiencing homelessness, drug addiction, or PTSD from relationship trauma, rely on the efficacy of IUDs to prevent unwanted pregnancies. Their lives often don’t allow for them to remember to consistently take pills every month.
Many women don’t tolerate combination birth control because of a history of blood clots, female cancers, or migraine headaches associated with their periods, and therefore the Mirena IUD, which is progesterone only, is a safe alternative for preventing unwanted pregnancy.
That all being said, many women do suffer on the Mirena IUD (or other forms of birth control). They were perhaps put on the Mirena to deal with some of the above symptoms of hormonal imbalance, or for contraception. Many of them noticed that their symptoms became worse after insertion of the IUD.
How the Mirena IUD and Birth Control Works:
The Mirena works by secreting small amounts of progestins, a synthetic form of progesterone, into the uterus and surrounding tissues. While it is not fully known how the Mirena works, the end result is a suppression of ovulation. This results in either very light periods or a complete cessation of periods until the IUD is removed (after 5 years when its hormones run out).
It is important to say here that, while birth control can certainly treat the symptoms of hormonal imbalances, it does not correct them.
All forms of birth control, with their synthetic versions of the hormones estrogen and progesterone, simply induce further hormone imbalances in the body. They introduce versions of hormones that may suppress or alter symptoms (such as heavy and painful bleeding, or acne), but the versions of hormones are not fully recognized by the body and therefore don’t fully replace all the hormones’ important functions, such as mood regulation, immunity, or blood sugar balance.
The effects of both altering the body’s natural hormonal balance, while ignoring the underlying cause of hormonal issues, is often what causes symptoms to continue or worsen.
For example, women with PCOS are prescribed birth control to manage acne or promote monthly periods. However, when women with PCOS miss periods, it is because they are not ovulating. The missed periods are not the problem; the lack of ovulation is.
Despite that, many women with PCOS experiencing amenorrhea (or missed cycles) will be prescribed birth control. However, birth control does not address the underlying cause of amenorrhea. It simply further suppresses ovulation (because its main purpose is to prevent unwanted pregnancy).
The periods you get while on birth control are not periods. Periods from birth control are withdrawal bleeds. After 21 days of taking hormonal pills, pills are stopped or replaced with placebo pills. The withdrawal of hormones in the pills induces a bleed that resembles a period, but is not one.
Hormonal contraception does not correct hormonal imbalance, it imposes further hormonal imbalance to manage symptoms. This is not always bad!
But it is an important difference.
Many women do require symptom suppression, particularly if their symptoms are severe. Many individuals in my practice experience periods so heavy that the only way for them to get through the month is with an IUD. Genetic variability in how our bodies process hormones can make us susceptible to intense hormonal symptoms, through no fault of our own.
In my opinion, however, it is important to attempt to address the underlying cause and to set our bodies up for better hormonal regulation, making as many changes as our lifestyles will allow.
What You Can Do About It:
If you are like any of the people I described above who seek my help, there are a few things that you can do to get started on correcting hormones.
Working With a Professional:
The first thing I advise is finding a licensed naturopathic doctor or functional medicine practitioner who understands hormones, can order lab tests, and will address the underlying cause of your hormonal imbalances by taking the time to fully understand your body and lifestyle.
This practitioner might be a naturopathic doctor (you can find one in North America by looking one up at naturopathic.org), or a medical doctor, a chiropractor, or a highly skilled nutritionist or nurse practitioner. Research this person well, read their articles, and perhaps book in with them for a complimentary meet and greet.
Testing:
I often test patients using simple blood tests, on day 21 of their cycles (or about 7-9 days before they expect their next period).
I will test their blood, looking for anemia, will test iron and B12 levels, homocysteine (to gauge their ability to methylate), vitamin D, cholesterol (to see if their diets are promoting proper hormone synthesis), estradiol, estrone (the more toxic, problematic estrogen), progesterone, free testosterone, a thyroid panel, fasting glucose and fasting insulin (to calculate insulin resistance using something called the HOMA-IR), HbA1C (to look a long-term blood glucose control), FSH and LH (two hormones made in the brain that talk to the ovaries and orchestrate the menstrual cycle), DHEA-S, to name a few.
Some women will require more testing. Others will require less.
These labs are interpreted from a functional perspective. Even though you are in the “normal” ranges (which take into account the entire population, many of which are not healthy—they are seeing their doctors, after all!), these blood markers may not be optimally balanced, giving us an opportunity to correct things before they go further.
Testing allows us to match symptoms to underlying imbalances and to be able to properly direct treatment protocols. Women with estrogen dominance may be experiencing high levels of estrogen and normal progesterone, which indicates a body burden of estrogen or impaired liver and digestive system clearance. Other women may be experiencing normal levels of estrogen but low progesterone, indicating a failure of their bodies to ovulate, due to high stress, and PCOS (or the Mirena IUD and birth control pill).
Other options for hormonal testing are month-long salivary hormone testing, or DUTCH testing, which looks at hormone breakdown in the urine. I sometimes run these tests, but find that blood testing is useful, accurate, and more cost-effective.
Treatment:
Once you understand your individual hormonal situation through testing (and through working with a practitioner who is putting the testing together with your symptoms and health history), your practitioner may recommend a variety of treatments.
I personally combine diet and lifestyle with key herbal and nutritional supplements, to target what is going on under the surface with my particular patients.
These treatments may include herbs that boost ovulation, aid liver detoxification, or regulate the stress response. I might recommend nutraceuticals that encourage methylation, or aid in hormone production.
My treatments take into account the individual’s symptoms, labs, diet, lifestyle, and any other health issues she may be facing like fatigue, digestive disturbances, or poor sleep.
What You Can Do Today:
Barring more individualized assessment and advice, there are some best lifestyle practices that can help most women balance their hormones better, whether they are still using birth control to control and address their hormonal symptoms or prevent pregnancy.
Diet:
When it comes to diet and hormone support, we need to ensure that we are balancing blood sugar, boosting liver detoxification pathways, promoting hormone synthesis, and supporting digestion, especially if experiencing constipation.
Consume more leafy greens: kale, spinach, collards, beet greens, arugula, etc. Eat 1-2 cups of these foods every day. Leafy greens contain active folate, which boosts methylation and detoxification. They also contain magnesium which is essential for hormonal regulation as well as 300 other important biochemical reactions in the body that balance mood and hormones.
Consume more cruciferous vegetables: broccoli, cauliflower, brussel sprouts, cabbage, bok choy, etc. Eat 1-2 cups of these foods every day. Crucifates help the body make glutathione, and contain indole-3-carbinole, which helps eliminate excess estrogens from the body. Broccoli sprouts are potent players in these pathways. Consume them as often as possible.
Ensure adequate dietary fibre intake: I often recommend ground flaxseeds or chia seeds in smoothies, avocados, fruits and vegetables and legumes (if tolerated) to make sure that women are having regular bowel movements to clear excess estrogens out of the body. 2 tbs of ground flaxseed (or more) every day can help balance estrogen levels and promote daily bowel movements.
Balance blood sugar: consume protein, fat and fibre at every meal. Avoid refined starches and flours. Avoid all sugar, even natural sugar like maple syrup, coconut sugar, cane sugar, honey, agave, etc. Try stevia or avoid sweets. Limit carbs (grains, legumes, root vegetables like potatoes or sweet potatoes, to 1/2 cup to 1 cup per meal). Only consume whole grains like quinoa, buckwheat, steel cut oats, millet, and teff. Cook them yourself!
Avoid soy, particularly processed soy, like vegan burgers, or soy milk.
Consume omega 3 fatty acids in fatty fish like salmon and sardines, or nuts and seeds like flax and chia seeds, walnuts, and pumpkin seeds. Get 2-4 tablespoons of these nuts and seeds every day and 3-4 servings of fatty fish a week.
Consume animal products: eggs contain choline, which is essential for liver function, meat contains vitamins B6 and B12, which are essential for hormonal regulation and production. Cholesterol in animal products are the backbones of our sex hormones. Iodine, found in animal foods, regulates estrogen balance in the body. If possible, try to obtain organic animal products from pastured or free-range animals to boost omega 3 intake, to lower your impact on the environment, and to promote animal welfare.
Other Lifestyle Practices:
Boost progesterone production by managing stress:
Establish a self-care routine: plan regular vacations, even small outings, do meditation or yoga, take breaks from work, spend quality time with family, have a plan to get your work done on time, ask for help.
Sleep! Aim for at least 8 hours of sleep, and try to get to bed before 12am. Practice good sleep hygiene by avoiding electronics before bed, keeping the bedroom as dark as possible, and setting a bedtime and wake time, even on weekends. Body scan meditations and some key supplements can be helpful for resetting circadian rhythms. Regulating blood sugar can have a major impact on improving sleep. Talk to your functional medicine doctor or naturopathic doctor for individualized sleep solutions.
Eliminate exposure to toxic estrogens and boost estrogen clearance:
Avoid exposure to xenoestrogens: whenever possible use natural body products, deodorants and shampoos, or “edible” body products for face and hair. Avoid plastic water bottles and plastic food containers. Use natural cleaning products around the house. Avoid fragrances and processed foods, especially processed soy.
Encourage sweating: get regular exercise or engage in regular sauna therapy. If you don’t have access to a sauna, epsom salt baths can also work—anything that helps you sweat. Heat therapy has also been shown to benefit mood and the stress response.
Heal your digestion: make this a priority with your naturopathic doctor, so that you can absorb the nutrients from the foods you’re eating as well as encourage daily bowel movements and optimal microbiome balance.
Maintain a healthy weight: body fat is metabolically active and can increase overall estrogenic load. Work with your naturopathic doctor to manage your weight. We often attempt to lose weight to become healthy, however I find my patients have far more success (and fun!) getting healthy in order to lose weight. Healthy weight loss often involves managing stress, sleeping 8 hours a night, avoiding sugar and processed foods, and regulating blood sugar, as well as encouraging proper sweating and liver detoxification.
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I often encourage my patients to write a letter to themselves on their birthdays for the following year using a website called FutureMe.org, where you can post-date emails to yourself to any date in the future. This exercise is great to do on any day, really. Tomorrow is my birthday. I’ll be 32. Here is my letter.
This is it.
This is your life.
As Cheryl Strayed wrote, “The f— is your life. Answer it.”
There are some things that you thought were temporary, mere stepping stones on your way to someplace better, that you now realize are familiar friends, ever present in their essence, but varying in their specific details.
For instance:
1) You will ride buses.
You will never escape the bus. For a while taking the bus was seen as a temporary stop on your way to something else (a car?). You took the bus as a pre-teen, excited to finally be allowed to venture to parts of town alone. As a student, you took the bus to the mall, laughing at the ridiculousness of Kingston, Ontario, once you’d left the protective bubble of the student community, completely inappropriately, yet affectionately (and ignorantly) called The Ghetto.
You will visit other ghettos, also by bus, that are far more deserving of their names. However these ghettos will instead have hopeful names such as El Paraiso, or La Preserverancia. Those who live there will persevere. So will you.
Buses will take you over the mountains of Guatemala, to visit student clients in Bogota, Columbia. To desirable areas of Cartagena. You’ll ride them through India. They will carry you through Asia, bringing you to trains and airports.
You’ll ride buses as a doctor. You’ll ride the bus to your clinic every day.
Sometimes, on long busy days in Toronto, it’ll seem like you’ll spend all day trapped in a bus.
The bus is not a temporary reality of your life. The bus is one of the “f—s” of your life. You’ll learn to answer it. You’ll learn to stop dissociating from the experience of “getting somewhere” and realize you are always somewhere. Life is happening right here, and sometimes “right here” is on the seat of a bus. Eventually you start to open up, to live there. You start to live in the understanding that the getting somewhere is just as important as (maybe more than) arriving.
We breathe to fill our empty lungs. Almost immediately after they’re full, the desire to empty them overwhelms. Similarly, you board a bus to get somewhere, while you’re on the bus, you start to understand.
You’re already here.
Maybe you’ll graduate some day, to a car.
But sooner or later, you’ll board a bus.
And ride it again.
2). You’ll experience negative emotion, no matter who you are or what your life circumstance.
Rejection, worthlessness, sadness, and heart break, are constant friends. Sometimes they’ll go on vacation. They’ll always visit again.
You will never reach the shores of certainty. You will never be “done”. You may take consolation in momentary pauses, where you note your confidence has found a rock to rest its head against. But you’ll grow bored of your rock (it is just a rock, lifeless, after all). You’ll then dive back into the deep waters of doubt, risk despair, and swim again.
Happiness isn’t a final destination. Instead, it’s a roadside Starbucks: a place to refuel, and maybe passing through is an encouragement you’re headed in the right direction.
3). The people in your life are like wisps of smoke.
They will come and go. Some of them will simply whiff towards you, visiting momentarily. Their names you’ll hardly remember. You’ll share ice cream and one deep, healing conversation about love that you’ll remember for years to come. You’ll reflect on this person’s words whenever you consider loving someone again.
You’ll remember the ice cream, the warm sea breeze, the thirst that came afterwards, the laughter. But it will be hard to remember his name… David? Daniel? You won’t keep in touch, but you’ll have been touched.
There will be others who come to seek your help. You might help them. You might not. They might come back regardless, or never return. Many times it will have nothing to do with the quality of your help. Or you.
Sometimes the smoke from the flame will thicken as you breathe oxygen into it. People will come closer, you’ll draw them in, inhale them.
Sometimes you’ll cough and blow others away.
You’ll wonder if that was a wise choice. You’ll think that it probably was.
Does a flame lament the ever-changing smoke it emits? Does the surrounding air try to grasp it? Do either personalize the dynamic undulations of smoke, that arise from the candle, dance in the fading light and dissipate?
Flames don’t own their smoke. They don’t seem to believe that the smoke blows away from them repelled by some inherent deficiency in them. Flames seem to accept the fact that smoke rises and disappears, doing as it’s always done.
4). Not everything is about you.
There will be times when failure lands in your lap. You’ll wonder if it’s because there is some nascent problem with you, that only others can see. These failures will tempt you to go searching for it.
You’ll find these faults. These deficiencies. In yourself, in others, in life itself.
You’ll wonder if it explains your failures. You’ll wonder why the failures had to happen to you.
You think that people can smell something on you, that your nose is no longer able to detect, like overwhelming perfume that your senses have grown used to, but that assaults the senses of others around you.
Failure and rejection, cause your heart to ache. Your heart aches, as all hearts do. The hearts of the virtuous, famous, heroic, and rich ache just as hard. The hearts of those who have committed evil deeds also split apart. (The only hearts that don’t may be the truly broken, the irredeemable. And those people are rare.)
You will experience joys. Your heart will mend and break, a thousands times.
And it has nothing to do with you.
5). Success is not a final destination.
There are no destinations. You will ride buses, you will feel happy, you will feel joy. You will try. You will succeed.
And you won’t.
You’ll pick up the pieces of your broken heart. You will mend them. You will flag down the next bus.
You will board it.
You will grasp—you can’t help it. Grasping will only push the wisps of smoke away, causing it to disappear in your hands. This will frustate you, but you’ll keep doing it.
Over and over.
And failing.
You’ll grasp some more and come up empty, thinking that it is because something is wrong with me. There is lots wrong with you.
There is lots right with you.
Most things have nothing to do with you. (That might be just as painful to accept
But healing as well.)
No one said healing didn’t hurt. Sometimes it f—ing hurts! But, as Cheryl Strayed wrote, “the f— is your life”.
In The Myth of Sisyphus, Camus wrote that weariness awakens consciousness, that “Everything begins with consciousness. Nothing is worth anything except through it.” 
For breakfast, I would typically eat a high-fat smoothie containing coconut milk yogurt, gelatin, and avocado, and topped with pumpkin seeds and cacao. Sometimes I’d make fat bombs or homemade unsweetened chocolate.
